Steve from England

Got a new PC. As the main workhorse of the house I need something powerful. I also need reliable USB 3 along with connections for a headset. What a pain in the backside setting it up was. Over 24 hours and two clean installs to get it right. Hopefully Sean and Daisy can finally watch fifty shades of grey now. I've had my first chat with Randy using the headset.. Freedom and privacy at last! Nissan appear to be agreeing to updating the navigation software in the car. Council still can't get their sums right.

Got a new PC. As the main workhorse of the house I need something powerful. I also need reliable USB 3 along with connections for a headset. What a pain in the backside setting it up was. Over 24 hours and two clean installs to get it right. Hopefully Sean and Daisy can finally watch fifty shades of grey now. I've had my first chat with Randy using the headset.. Freedom and privacy at last! Nissan appear to be agreeing to updating the navigation software in the car. Council still can't get their sums right.

Am in the process of cloning Zoey’s hard drive on to a new super fast SSD drive, that’s step one of the kick up the arse improvement program. Next step is to physically replace the HDD with the SSD keeping the SSD as a back-up. Then the new RAM is inserted followed by the new Graphics Card … once that’s all done she should have a lovely fast machine! Next Job Dinner with Robin After That …. Hopefully my new PC will arrive. I might get away with simply moving my SSD into the new machine and the extra HHD’s into it too. I might go for a clean install though which will obviously take a lot longer! And then … (special customer) My old system goes to Sean who does what the hell he wants, his machine probably goes to Daisy so they both have a PC in their lounge meaning no more complaints from Daisy her laptop is too slow! And finally? I think that’s it …. except … went to the wellbeing clinic earlier, I’ve been given some homework and advice. I need to say ‘no’ a lot more a mean it a...

Am in the process of cloning Zoey’s hard drive on to a new super fast SSD drive, that’s step one of the kick up the arse improvement program. Next step is to physically replace the HDD with the SSD keeping the SSD as a back-up. Then the new RAM is inserted followed by the new Graphics Card … once that’s all done she should have a lovely fast machine! Next Job Dinner with Robin After That …. Hopefully my new PC will arrive. I might get away with simply moving my SSD into the new machine and the extra HHD’s into it too. I might go for a clean install though which will obviously take a lot longer! And then … (special customer) My old system goes to Sean who does what the hell he wants, his machine probably goes to Daisy so they both have a PC in their lounge meaning no more complaints from Daisy her laptop is too slow! And finally? I think that’s it …. except … went to the wellbeing clinic earlier, I’ve been given some homework and advice. I need to say ‘no’ a lot more a mean it a...

Hair short again, new specs (purple) … overweight! The glasses are a freebie from Vision Express as I am still waiting, over a month later, for the ones I ordered! I stopped taken the anti depression meds. I did feel some improvement with them but, I don’t much want to lose every morning and there was an issue they caused which I also didn’t much approve of. I have counselling soon anyway so let’s see what that does. OMG! I am going to Download in June …. Muse, Hollywood Undead and loads of other bands you’ve probably never heard of but, even if it is raining and cold, how awesome is that! My first ever festival … OK, so no camping and getting drunk but, maybe next year though, they’d have to go some to top Muse. Leonard Nimoy died (84), how sad. True, he couldn’t sing to save his life, his acting was exactly amazing but, he was Spock. I so couldn’t resist this baby. Sure, I’m broke but, all the same, part of my getting well is getting things sorted that I need sorted. My curr...

Hair short again, new specs (purple) … overweight! The glasses are a freebie from Vision Express as I am still waiting, over a month later, for the ones I ordered! I stopped taken the anti depression meds. I did feel some improvement with them but, I don’t much want to lose every morning and there was an issue they caused which I also didn’t much approve of. I have counselling soon anyway so let’s see what that does. OMG! I am going to Download in June …. Muse, Hollywood Undead and loads of other bands you’ve probably never heard of but, even if it is raining and cold, how awesome is that! My first ever festival … OK, so no camping and getting drunk but, maybe next year though, they’d have to go some to top Muse. Leonard Nimoy died (84), how sad. True, he couldn’t sing to save his life, his acting was exactly amazing but, he was Spock. I so couldn’t resist this baby. Sure, I’m broke but, all the same, part of my getting well is getting things sorted that I need sorted. My curr...

You gotta love it when you sit at the PC to do something and then it asks for more details but you can’t remember them so you check it out and then you sign on and everything works but …. you can’t remember what you sat at the PC to do in the first place!

You gotta love it when you sit at the PC to do something and then it asks for more details but you can’t remember them so you check it out and then you sign on and everything works but …. you can’t remember what you sat at the PC to do in the first place!

As I am familiar with my house I really don’t need to turn all the lights on. This in mind I walked into the bathroom to fill a glass with water, it’s just a small glass. So, there I am in the dark filling up this glass cleverly using a finger as a guide to when it’s near the top, I like to use my brain me! Got back to my room to discover the glass was only half full. Thinking back, I had my damn finger under the tap! Anyway, I thought that might be amusing. Ticking all the boxes When it comes to dating and dating sites I have often believed, well, indeed, always believed that once I find someone who ticks all the boxes it is time to stop looking! So, why is it that the one who fits my requirements perfectly has to live the other side of the planet? Somehow I now need to give this a chance because, otherwise, I’ll always wonder, what if? Buggered if I know how right now though. Sleeping Hmm, I am not sleeping so well. Medication makes me sleepy but, now I have this cough keeping ...

As I am familiar with my house I really don’t need to turn all the lights on. This in mind I walked into the bathroom to fill a glass with water, it’s just a small glass. So, there I am in the dark filling up this glass cleverly using a finger as a guide to when it’s near the top, I like to use my brain me! Got back to my room to discover the glass was only half full. Thinking back, I had my damn finger under the tap! Anyway, I thought that might be amusing. Ticking all the boxes When it comes to dating and dating sites I have often believed, well, indeed, always believed that once I find someone who ticks all the boxes it is time to stop looking! So, why is it that the one who fits my requirements perfectly has to live the other side of the planet? Somehow I now need to give this a chance because, otherwise, I’ll always wonder, what if? Buggered if I know how right now though. Sleeping Hmm, I am not sleeping so well. Medication makes me sleepy but, now I have this cough keeping ...

Went to see a show Tuesday in Birmingham We had seats just near the front on the left as you look at the picture. Went along with Robin, Diana and, met Bill there who was lovely and got the tickets for us. Having seen the film and loved it I was nervous about the play, I thought it might have lost something from the film adaptation. A strange thought really seeing as when I watched the film I was convinced they could barely have changed anything from the stage play except expand on some of the sets. Thankfully there was nothing missing, it was all there and in full colour too! It would have been nice to stay for drinks afterwards but, it’s Birmingham, not exactly just around the corner. As it was we had to make a detour as they’d closed part of our route to roadworks so it took some time to get back. Even so, an evening out socialising over a shandy with others who turn up is quite appealing. I’ve managed to get through some quite long days even on this medication but am still wo...

Went to see a show Tuesday in Birmingham We had seats just near the front on the left as you look at the picture. Went along with Robin, Diana and, met Bill there who was lovely and got the tickets for us. Having seen the film and loved it I was nervous about the play, I thought it might have lost something from the film adaptation. A strange thought really seeing as when I watched the film I was convinced they could barely have changed anything from the stage play except expand on some of the sets. Thankfully there was nothing missing, it was all there and in full colour too! It would have been nice to stay for drinks afterwards but, it’s Birmingham, not exactly just around the corner. As it was we had to make a detour as they’d closed part of our route to roadworks so it took some time to get back. Even so, an evening out socialising over a shandy with others who turn up is quite appealing. I’ve managed to get through some quite long days even on this medication but am still wo...

Well, the antidepressants seems to be doing something, annoyingly, the side effects are rather noticeable as well. Constantly tired, a sort of detached feeling and my hearing has become weird and I can’t quite describe that apart from just weird. There is another side effect which I am not writing about here and that’s a little annoying too. As for the medication change for the allergies, it’s made no difference at all, I am still stupidly itchy. I am not sure that the sprays are a good thing either as my nose seems to be getting clogged more and more causing headaches. To make one thing better I also changed my pillows, these new ones were £24 but are quite literally a dream. I sleep so well with them.

Well, the antidepressants seems to be doing something, annoyingly, the side effects are rather noticeable as well. Constantly tired, a sort of detached feeling and my hearing has become weird and I can’t quite describe that apart from just weird. There is another side effect which I am not writing about here and that’s a little annoying too. As for the medication change for the allergies, it’s made no difference at all, I am still stupidly itchy. I am not sure that the sprays are a good thing either as my nose seems to be getting clogged more and more causing headaches. To make one thing better I also changed my pillows, these new ones were £24 but are quite literally a dream. I sleep so well with them.

I finally got to see my GP, what fun and games that was! I made an appointment for my own GP to call me. Our surgery is weird because we do this using an automated system between midnight and 7am. She called me in the morning, concluded I needed to see someone and made an appointment, a double, for a locum as they are several doctors short of a surgery. The locum kept me waiting for half hour and then within the time of a single appointment she dismissed me suggesting I come back in two weeks if I didn’t feel better. I’d explained my background, how I don’t go for little things and that this has been as it is for many months but she just sent me away. So, I got a meeting with the practise manager and explained it all to her. She arranged for me to come back for the drop-in session 2 hours later where I had to ask for the deputy manager to ensure I got seen by my GP. Saw dep manager at 3pm and she asked me to wait. I was about to call downstairs to ask if I’d been forgotten when a te...

I finally got to see my GP, what fun and games that was! I made an appointment for my own GP to call me. Our surgery is weird because we do this using an automated system between midnight and 7am. She called me in the morning, concluded I needed to see someone and made an appointment, a double, for a locum as they are several doctors short of a surgery. The locum kept me waiting for half hour and then within the time of a single appointment she dismissed me suggesting I come back in two weeks if I didn’t feel better. I’d explained my background, how I don’t go for little things and that this has been as it is for many months but she just sent me away. So, I got a meeting with the practise manager and explained it all to her. She arranged for me to come back for the drop-in session 2 hours later where I had to ask for the deputy manager to ensure I got seen by my GP. Saw dep manager at 3pm and she asked me to wait. I was about to call downstairs to ask if I’d been forgotten when a te...

I deactivated my Facebook account earlier rather than deleting it. I intend to go back to it later in the year just not any time soon. I am going to declutter my life as much as possible and get back to basics, real people, real situations. Dad is finally moving this weekend. I’d hoped for a smooth transition, that’s not looking likely. Everyone who reads this should know how to contact me, for those who don’t, reply to this, I’ll get it.

I deactivated my Facebook account earlier rather than deleting it. I intend to go back to it later in the year just not any time soon. I am going to declutter my life as much as possible and get back to basics, real people, real situations. Dad is finally moving this weekend. I’d hoped for a smooth transition, that’s not looking likely. Everyone who reads this should know how to contact me, for those who don’t, reply to this, I’ll get it.

I’ve been battling depression for years. Mostly I got it under control. My last complete failure to control it was more than 20 years ago. What is depression? Damn inconvenient is what it is! Depression doesn’t just happen at night or last a couple of hours when we’re alone. It can happen at what could have been the best of times surrounded by the nicest of people. It can last for moments of severe woe to days of just not wanting to exist. How does it affect me? I go to bed at night genuinely hoping not to wake up the next day. I feel like everyone around me has a life, has a purpose except me. That to most I am needed, not wanted, that if I actually didn’t wake up tomorrow it isn’t the person I am which would be missed, it’s the stuff I can do for others. That’s how it affects me, that’s not saying it’s the reality, it’s how depression warps our perception of the world. What other stuff makes it worse? Every rejection stabs in the heart. Seeing others being invited places I am ...

I’ve been battling depression for years. Mostly I got it under control. My last complete failure to control it was more than 20 years ago. What is depression? Damn inconvenient is what it is! Depression doesn’t just happen at night or last a couple of hours when we’re alone. It can happen at what could have been the best of times surrounded by the nicest of people. It can last for moments of severe woe to days of just not wanting to exist. How does it affect me? I go to bed at night genuinely hoping not to wake up the next day. I feel like everyone around me has a life, has a purpose except me. That to most I am needed, not wanted, that if I actually didn’t wake up tomorrow it isn’t the person I am which would be missed, it’s the stuff I can do for others. That’s how it affects me, that’s not saying it’s the reality, it’s how depression warps our perception of the world. What other stuff makes it worse? Every rejection stabs in the heart. Seeing others being invited places I am ...