Steve from England

Just when I start thinking everything in my world is going to amazingly well, it starts to crumble! This time with Javis I was so sure it was going to work but, once again, it’s all collapsed, he’s gone. This is not the place to tell the story other than to say, I am really very sad about it and that, just lately, the levels of stress have made me ill. If I could wind back time, know what caused the problem and stop it, I would. Sadly, I didn’t see it coming and, by the time I tried to sort it, things had already gone too far. I said to him I didn’t want him as part of this family if he left, it was a bluff to get him to stay, it backfired and now he believes it, it’s my only regret that he still believes it. Maybe, one day in the future, things will sort themselves out. I get he won’t ever live in the same place again, I get that he has his own life but that doesn’t write off every possibility. Annoyingly, I am still very not well. I am eating again which is good but, my body is n

Just when I start thinking everything in my world is going to amazingly well, it starts to crumble! This time with Javis I was so sure it was going to work but, once again, it’s all collapsed, he’s gone. This is not the place to tell the story other than to say, I am really very sad about it and that, just lately, the levels of stress have made me ill. If I could wind back time, know what caused the problem and stop it, I would. Sadly, I didn’t see it coming and, by the time I tried to sort it, things had already gone too far. I said to him I didn’t want him as part of this family if he left, it was a bluff to get him to stay, it backfired and now he believes it, it’s my only regret that he still believes it. Maybe, one day in the future, things will sort themselves out. I get he won’t ever live in the same place again, I get that he has his own life but that doesn’t write off every possibility. Annoyingly, I am still very not well. I am eating again which is good but, my body is n

Where I feel I have achieved what I like to achieve, helping others relax, enjoy life and feel loved Annoyingly, this damn body and brain of mine are objecting and I feel totally exhausted and need of some TLC and thinking, 28th Oct feels like too long to wait for that relaxing massage! Have some unfinished things here to do (un-started in some cases) and I am setting Monday aside for those so, please no one think of booking me on that day. Tomorrow, Saturday, is my relax and recover day, again, sorry but I am off limits for lifts and running about all day. Need to get some plans fleshed out, see what I can settle on for next year. Need all those involved in the Halloween party to talk to each other and decide who is doing and proving what. Am loving life if I can just stay awake long enough  

Where I feel I have achieved what I like to achieve, helping others relax, enjoy life and feel loved Annoyingly, this damn body and brain of mine are objecting and I feel totally exhausted and need of some TLC and thinking, 28th Oct feels like too long to wait for that relaxing massage! Have some unfinished things here to do (un-started in some cases) and I am setting Monday aside for those so, please no one think of booking me on that day. Tomorrow, Saturday, is my relax and recover day, again, sorry but I am off limits for lifts and running about all day. Need to get some plans fleshed out, see what I can settle on for next year. Need all those involved in the Halloween party to talk to each other and decide who is doing and proving what. Am loving life if I can just stay awake long enough  

The totally awesome decorating done by mainly Daisy & Sean but with significant help from Deej, Chris and Jess? Not to mention, (but I did) the amount of support from Clare (and I think I spent that wrong). Still looking forward to Florida with Robin and excellent to see him so excited despite his best efforts! Really looking forward to the birth of Daniel (Danny) and Grace. I know it may seem weird to some that I consider Grace to be my granddaughter considering there is no blood between us but, I cannot consider Javis to be my son without thinking of all his children (it’s OK to stop now Javis) as my grandchildren. That doesn’t lessen my feelings towards my biological offspring, I have plenty of love and energy to go around at the moment … I never have and still don’t do favourites. Have decided what I want for Christmas, never done that before, quite a unique experience for me and yes, I’d love the Sebring but, let’s get real here!

The totally awesome decorating done by mainly Daisy & Sean but with significant help from Deej, Chris and Jess? Not to mention, (but I did) the amount of support from Clare (and I think I spent that wrong). Still looking forward to Florida with Robin and excellent to see him so excited despite his best efforts! Really looking forward to the birth of Daniel (Danny) and Grace. I know it may seem weird to some that I consider Grace to be my granddaughter considering there is no blood between us but, I cannot consider Javis to be my son without thinking of all his children (it’s OK to stop now Javis) as my grandchildren. That doesn’t lessen my feelings towards my biological offspring, I have plenty of love and energy to go around at the moment … I never have and still don’t do favourites. Have decided what I want for Christmas, never done that before, quite a unique experience for me and yes, I’d love the Sebring but, let’s get real here!

Awesome time in Orlando, loads of pics and video which I may eventually get time to sort out! Great to be with Javis out there, we got along most of the time and, when we didn’t, we hugged and made up and maybe learnt a little more about each other. . Missed Deej (obviously), actually, I get really quite home sick when away but, it’s good for me to recharge now and then I think Good listening to WJRR , a totally awesome Orlando based radio station! Been busy booking the next one for November with Robin. Still some things to do but the vast majority is now booked and paid for. Suffered Jet-Lag for a few days after our return which must have lowered my immune system so I got some more boils, this time under my armpit … yet more antibiotics! On the plus side, I was starting a diet anyway as I ‘fit in’ too well in the US! The antibiotics seem to lower my appetite so, win win situation albeit I feel sort of crap with the discomfort of the boils and stupidly tired much of the time! I am prob

Awesome time in Orlando, loads of pics and video which I may eventually get time to sort out! Great to be with Javis out there, we got along most of the time and, when we didn’t, we hugged and made up and maybe learnt a little more about each other. . Missed Deej (obviously), actually, I get really quite home sick when away but, it’s good for me to recharge now and then I think Good listening to WJRR , a totally awesome Orlando based radio station! Been busy booking the next one for November with Robin. Still some things to do but the vast majority is now booked and paid for. Suffered Jet-Lag for a few days after our return which must have lowered my immune system so I got some more boils, this time under my armpit … yet more antibiotics! On the plus side, I was starting a diet anyway as I ‘fit in’ too well in the US! The antibiotics seem to lower my appetite so, win win situation albeit I feel sort of crap with the discomfort of the boils and stupidly tired much of the tim