Steve from England

I am now more overweight than I have ever been in my life and not by any small amount either. I am now over 8 pounds heavier than ever before. This would explain why I have no respect for my appearance any more, why I feel very often depressed and, most important, why I am in so much horrible pain so much of the time. The simple truth is that my lower joints simply cannot manage the weight I am putting on them. Add to this a feeling of being mostly tired, that I am sweating an awful lot and it all adds up to a life changing experience. From right now I am on a diet change and that is going to mean zero fat. One cup of tea a day and the rest either water or cordial drinks. Only eating salad and fruit and getting a lot more exercise. If I don't do this I am going to get worse and worse until there is no recovery point and I am on 24/7 medication just to cope with life. I am not going to spoil what should be some really enjoyable experience because I eat too much. Time to start over a

I am now more overweight than I have ever been in my life and not by any small amount either. I am now over 8 pounds heavier than ever before. This would explain why I have no respect for my appearance any more, why I feel very often depressed and, most important, why I am in so much horrible pain so much of the time. The simple truth is that my lower joints simply cannot manage the weight I am putting on them. Add to this a feeling of being mostly tired, that I am sweating an awful lot and it all adds up to a life changing experience. From right now I am on a diet change and that is going to mean zero fat. One cup of tea a day and the rest either water or cordial drinks. Only eating salad and fruit and getting a lot more exercise. If I don't do this I am going to get worse and worse until there is no recovery point and I am on 24/7 medication just to cope with life. I am not going to spoil what should be some really enjoyable experience because I eat too much. Time to start over a

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Matt had got himself in trouble again financially, it's an all too common event and each time he has been bailed out with the inevitable following arguments whilst he makes all sorts of excuses which mainly consist of how he has it all under control cos he's gonna get a job which pays more, do overtime or whatever and, of course, these things don't happen and low and behold a student loan pops up and resolves it all for him. He thinks he's won some sort of victory on we go until the next cock up. This is just one such time and there was no student loan in the pipeline to rescue him this time. For the first time ever he'd have to take this seriously and work through it like an adult. Learn how to budget and actively make sure he had more money coming in ... the truth being that he is living way beyond his means. So, there I am quite excited that finally my little boy is going to grow up and take some responsibility at last ... How wrong was I? An envelope arrived and

Matt had got himself in trouble again financially, it's an all too common event and each time he has been bailed out with the inevitable following arguments whilst he makes all sorts of excuses which mainly consist of how he has it all under control cos he's gonna get a job which pays more, do overtime or whatever and, of course, these things don't happen and low and behold a student loan pops up and resolves it all for him. He thinks he's won some sort of victory on we go until the next cock up. This is just one such time and there was no student loan in the pipeline to rescue him this time. For the first time ever he'd have to take this seriously and work through it like an adult. Learn how to budget and actively make sure he had more money coming in ... the truth being that he is living way beyond his means. So, there I am quite excited that finally my little boy is going to grow up and take some responsibility at last ... How wrong was I? An envelope arrived and

The Rheumatology department at the hospital reckoned that my joint pain would be eased considerably were I to take some anti anxiety pills. Apparently, so the theory goes, if I am nice and relaxed the pain will simply go away. Tried said pills for a week. Pain got worse and I spent much of my time asleep or just off with the fairies. I decided that taken them is no longer an option as I really do need a life. Earlier I decided that there was way too much clutter around me so something had to change. My mind decided that if my desk were to move 18" to the right that I would have a vastly improved workspace and thus feel happier and become more content (just goes to prove the tablets were crap). An hour or two later the job was complete and the office looks a lot bigger and my desk looks huge, no clutter! I am a happy bunny again :-) Matt is still gliding along waiting for something to happen to get him out of the current hole. It may do but probably won't and it'll all be l

The Rheumatology department at the hospital reckoned that my joint pain would be eased considerably were I to take some anti anxiety pills. Apparently, so the theory goes, if I am nice and relaxed the pain will simply go away. Tried said pills for a week. Pain got worse and I spent much of my time asleep or just off with the fairies. I decided that taken them is no longer an option as I really do need a life. Earlier I decided that there was way too much clutter around me so something had to change. My mind decided that if my desk were to move 18" to the right that I would have a vastly improved workspace and thus feel happier and become more content (just goes to prove the tablets were crap). An hour or two later the job was complete and the office looks a lot bigger and my desk looks huge, no clutter! I am a happy bunny again :-) Matt is still gliding along waiting for something to happen to get him out of the current hole. It may do but probably won't and it'll all be l

As mentioned in my last blog we have been getting some hassle from local chavs throwing the snowballs and stuff. I got to a point earlier where I couldn't stay in the house any more because it was winding me up so. What I needed to do was remove myself from the situation so got John and Zoey ready and headed for the car, Daisy stayed home alone not wanting to go out in the cold. I don't remember a great deal, it's a bit of a blur now but I know we were coming in for some abuse and had snowballs thrown at us and at some point I just snapped. The ringleader, this mixed race kid pushed me further than I thought it was possible to push me and I went for him. Initially I grabbed his throat, I just wanted to shut him up. When he smiled at me I could see the smile I got back in the old house from the kid there that terrorised us for years knowing he'd get away with it. I freaked. Very soon I let go of him totally shocked by what he had done and then, when I did, the kid (14) s

As mentioned in my last blog we have been getting some hassle from local chavs throwing the snowballs and stuff. I got to a point earlier where I couldn't stay in the house any more because it was winding me up so. What I needed to do was remove myself from the situation so got John and Zoey ready and headed for the car, Daisy stayed home alone not wanting to go out in the cold. I don't remember a great deal, it's a bit of a blur now but I know we were coming in for some abuse and had snowballs thrown at us and at some point I just snapped. The ringleader, this mixed race kid pushed me further than I thought it was possible to push me and I went for him. Initially I grabbed his throat, I just wanted to shut him up. When he smiled at me I could see the smile I got back in the old house from the kid there that terrorised us for years knowing he'd get away with it. I freaked. Very soon I let go of him totally shocked by what he had done and then, when I did, the kid (14) s

Yep, the first snows of 2007 arrived yesterday and I can't even say I gave it my normal 'wow'. For some reason I decided it wasn't going to last and so could already see the mush before it started and that's how it is now. It's the usual story of something which used to be fun in my younger days now not being so and it's mainly to do with the chavs around here. Going out yesterday was target practise for them, fortunately they are terrible at throwing and missed me but it's just something I can't think of any of the kids doing when I was their age, throwing snow balls at adults we didn't know just wasn't on but then, that was back in the days when a threat to tell our parents amounted to something. As usual the area outside is a mess with pieces of wood and crates all over the place where they have been used as sleds. Kids thought it a great idea yesterday to barricade the road further up making drivers turn around and go all the way round be

Yep, the first snows of 2007 arrived yesterday and I can't even say I gave it my normal 'wow'. For some reason I decided it wasn't going to last and so could already see the mush before it started and that's how it is now. It's the usual story of something which used to be fun in my younger days now not being so and it's mainly to do with the chavs around here. Going out yesterday was target practise for them, fortunately they are terrible at throwing and missed me but it's just something I can't think of any of the kids doing when I was their age, throwing snow balls at adults we didn't know just wasn't on but then, that was back in the days when a threat to tell our parents amounted to something. As usual the area outside is a mess with pieces of wood and crates all over the place where they have been used as sleds. Kids thought it a great idea yesterday to barricade the road further up making drivers turn around and go all the way round be