Steve from England

It is not quite the same, I correct one paragraph placement mistake which made it look kind of screwy. and ... on to today. Strictly speaking, that'd be yesterday or, whenever it happens to be when you read this. Tried to book up the 'experience' things we got for our wedding ... oh dear :-( Our 'Red Letter Day' could have been amazing had I only not been so damn busy. Had I arranged it last month we could have gone see 'Avenue Q' but, as it happens, the entire offer has ended now to be replaced with a similar offer but without Avenue Q and in a different hotel one which says on their site 'Building work continues on the lower levels and some noise may disrupt clients'. Oh joy, so I go see a show we don't really want to see in a hotel that is going to keep me awake ... not overly impressed. They have said I can transfer it to a deal of similar value or wait until they have their new selection of shows in January. I don't know whether to do th

It is not quite the same, I correct one paragraph placement mistake which made it look kind of screwy. and ... on to today. Strictly speaking, that'd be yesterday or, whenever it happens to be when you read this. Tried to book up the 'experience' things we got for our wedding ... oh dear :-( Our 'Red Letter Day' could have been amazing had I only not been so damn busy. Had I arranged it last month we could have gone see 'Avenue Q' but, as it happens, the entire offer has ended now to be replaced with a similar offer but without Avenue Q and in a different hotel one which says on their site 'Building work continues on the lower levels and some noise may disrupt clients'. Oh joy, so I go see a show we don't really want to see in a hotel that is going to keep me awake ... not overly impressed. They have said I can transfer it to a deal of similar value or wait until they have their new selection of shows in January. I don't know whether

Yeah, probably but ... Wow! What a fooking year this has been! Happy families to a family at war, new friends, old friends rediscovered ... hey, new life, how about that? November 2008, where were we? We were just a week away from an amazing family holiday to Disneyland Resort Paris. Yeah, that was a year ago this week, amazing what can happen in just one short year. What did we know? Daisy and James were a happy couple. James was mad, as always (tis why we love him) but, I think, really happy. Soon after we came back (I think it was) was when I was thought to have died, that was a laugh. (For the record, I didn't) Was it all rosy? No, of course not, when is life ever? Things were hard work especially with getting things sorted for James and I am sure we were probably soon into decorating and rearranging like mad things. 2009 started, two great house parties at the end of 2008 "Your kids don't deserve you" was hysterical .... "Steve is a great dad" was touch

Yeah, probably but ... Wow! What a fooking year this has been! Happy families to a family at war, new friends, old friends rediscovered ... hey, new life, how about that? November 2008, where were we? We were just a week away from an amazing family holiday to Disneyland Resort Paris. Yeah, that was a year ago this week, amazing what can happen in just one short year. What did we know? Daisy and James were a happy couple. James was mad, as always (tis why we love him) but, I think, really happy. Soon after we came back (I think it was) was when I was thought to have died, that was a laugh. (For the record, I didn't) Was it all rosy? No, of course not, when is life ever? Things were hard work especially with getting things sorted for James and I am sure we were probably soon into decorating and rearranging like mad things. 2009 started, two great house parties at the end of 2008 "Your kids don't deserve you" was hysterical .... "Steve is a great dad" w

M is what you get when you start typing 'My' then accidentally hit the 'enter' key! My bad My word (got it right that time) I am so tired! Ahhh ... just seen what I did ... you see, being tired I started to type in the title bar, realised I was in the wrong place and hit the enter key to go down to the next line, no, it doesn't have to make sense! Was going to bed earlier last night but Josh needed feeding at midnight to 1pm. I wanted to go to bed at 11 but then, hold on, he'll need feeding in just over an hour, what's the point? The dishwasher still needed doing as did a few other things so I stayed up until what was eventually around 1:30. I got up at 8:45 so a lay in really but, didn't feel like it, my allergies have also gone a little crazy which also makes me feel tired. So, I am gonna go down and squirt my nose and then pass out for an hour or so ... I hate this time of year, all my joints seem to play up making me feel older than I feel if that ma

M is what you get when you start typing 'My' then accidentally hit the 'enter' key! My bad My word (got it right that time) I am so tired! Ahhh ... just seen what I did ... you see, being tired I started to type in the title bar, realised I was in the wrong place and hit the enter key to go down to the next line, no, it doesn't have to make sense! Was going to bed earlier last night but Josh needed feeding at midnight to 1pm. I wanted to go to bed at 11 but then, hold on, he'll need feeding in just over an hour, what's the point? The dishwasher still needed doing as did a few other things so I stayed up until what was eventually around 1:30. I got up at 8:45 so a lay in really but, didn't feel like it, my allergies have also gone a little crazy which also makes me feel tired. So, I am gonna go down and squirt my nose and then pass out for an hour or so ... I hate this time of year, all my joints seem to play up making me feel older than I feel if

We really just don't seem to be in the same place as the camera when he does it and it's dead annoying! He smiles loads now and what a lovely smile he has too but, you'll have to make my word for it unless you've seen him recently! But hey, we are here most days, come say hello if you know us, just a quick call first. My throat is getting better, not better but 'getting' better. I can now eat with hardly any pain relief at all. I am quite deaf though, I think my tubes are well and truly screwed up this time. Been ordering way too much stuff for Josh on Ebay but he's worth it ... so what if we don't really have the money! Am missing friends, barely seem to get time to do anything any more or, if I do, am just too tired. Off to Corby later with Daisy and Josh, not sure if Sean will be around in time but maybe Sean too. I stupidly forgot to take Jermaine's money round to Matt & Anne's yesterday so am taking it up later. I figured, as I have to c

We really just don't seem to be in the same place as the camera when he does it and it's dead annoying! He smiles loads now and what a lovely smile he has too but, you'll have to make my word for it unless you've seen him recently! But hey, we are here most days, come say hello if you know us, just a quick call first. My throat is getting better, not better but 'getting' better. I can now eat with hardly any pain relief at all. I am quite deaf though, I think my tubes are well and truly screwed up this time. Been ordering way too much stuff for Josh on Ebay but he's worth it ... so what if we don't really have the money! Am missing friends, barely seem to get time to do anything any more or, if I do, am just too tired. Off to Corby later with Daisy and Josh, not sure if Sean will be around in time but maybe Sean too. I stupidly forgot to take Jermaine's money round to Matt & Anne's yesterday so am taking it up later. I figured, as I

C'Mon, we all ask ourselves that at some point if we're honest don't we? Well, yeah, I do too. Not to the point of 'doing anything silly' but certainly to that point of thinking over my life and seeing if the good stuff is worth the poo. There are some moments in my life I shall treasure, some more than others ... here are some of the people in my life who have made me a happy bunny ... this is not to be confused with, people I have never had issues with, just those who have made my life a better place ... The one thing all of these people have in common is, in one way or another they are no longer in my life and whilst the memories are always there and always amazingly heart-warming, those times are in the past. To explain, kids, as they grow, develop and lose personalities so, as parents, we get used to countless different people, different attitudes, behaviour. As they grow up and become adults, they are different people to the kids I used to know, still amazing

C'Mon, we all ask ourselves that at some point if we're honest don't we? Well, yeah, I do too. Not to the point of 'doing anything silly' but certainly to that point of thinking over my life and seeing if the good stuff is worth the poo. There are some moments in my life I shall treasure, some more than others ... here are some of the people in my life who have made me a happy bunny ... this is not to be confused with, people I have never had issues with, just those who have made my life a better place ... The one thing all of these people have in common is, in one way or another they are no longer in my life and whilst the memories are always there and always amazingly heart-warming, those times are in the past. To explain, kids, as they grow, develop and lose personalities so, as parents, we get used to countless different people, different attitudes, behaviour. As they grow up and become adults, they are different people to the kids I used to know, still

"Ministers have admitted defeat in their efforts to remove a "free speech" defence from new laws against inciting homophobic hatred." I don't often 'do' politics on here, it isn't often something annoys me enough but this is one of those times! A police spokesperson in the house of lords claimed he was told by many police officers that gay 'activists' were abusing the current system making them have to act on such people as Buju Banton 'simply' because they used their freedom of speech to enable them to express their opinion on homosexuality. These activists were forcing the police to take action against such people as comedians merely for them making jokes with anti gay references. Those lords of a religious bent were arguing that their relgion teaches them that homosexuality is wrong and they should be allowed a legal voice to share their views. The thrust of the argument seemed to revolve around religion. The police complained tha

"Ministers have admitted defeat in their efforts to remove a "free speech" defence from new laws against inciting homophobic hatred." I don't often 'do' politics on here, it isn't often something annoys me enough but this is one of those times! A police spokesperson in the house of lords claimed he was told by many police officers that gay 'activists' were abusing the current system making them have to act on such people as Buju Banton 'simply' because they used their freedom of speech to enable them to express their opinion on homosexuality. These activists were forcing the police to take action against such people as comedians merely for them making jokes with anti gay references. Those lords of a religious bent were arguing that their relgion teaches them that homosexuality is wrong and they should be allowed a legal voice to share their views. The thrust of the argument seemed to revolve around religion. The police com

Hereditary Spherocytosis Is the condition that James has (not his fault) and now, we believe, Josh has too. He still needs another confirmation blood test but it certainly seemed likely from what the doctor told me earlier from prilimary results. Should we be worried? Well, I am not the expert. From what I understand it could well involve blood transfusions, food supplements and eventually, a Splenectomy.  As a comfort we can look at James and his dad .André and see that it is possible to live quite a reasonably normal life with this condition. My concern is that, if not given the right treatment, it can cause behavioual issues later on which will effect his education. This is not from the spherocytosis itself but from the Anemia that it can cause. If it develops into Chronic anemia it may result in behavioral disturbances in children as a direct result of impaired neurological development in infants, and reduced scholastic performance in children of school age, this could, and I hop

Hereditary Spherocytosis Is the condition that James has (not his fault) and now, we believe, Josh has too. He still needs another confirmation blood test but it certainly seemed likely from what the doctor told me earlier from prilimary results. Should we be worried? Well, I am not the expert. From what I understand it could well involve blood transfusions, food supplements and eventually, a Splenectomy.  As a comfort we can look at James and his dad .André and see that it is possible to live quite a reasonably normal life with this condition. My concern is that, if not given the right treatment, it can cause behavioual issues later on which will effect his education. This is not from the spherocytosis itself but from the Anemia that it can cause. If it develops into Chronic anemia it may result in behavioral disturbances in children as a direct result of impaired neurological development in infants, and reduced scholastic performance in children of school age, this could, an

No, not you ... As we go through life little expressions are picked up and we maybe don't give a lot of thought as to where they originated ... with the expression 'get knotted' I have to confess I was of the belief it had something to do with rope, wrong! It derives from the term 'knotting' which is what happens when the penis of the dog swell in the virgina of the bitch and they are literally knotted together until he ejaculated and releases the pressure. So, the term actually means .. go fuck a dog. On another subject, our Josh has not been overly happy today. We've checked him over many times, nothing obviously wrong, seems he just wants some attention as he generally calms quite quickly once he gets it. All the same, listening to a baby crying, even for just half an hour or so, is quite traumatic. He's sleeping now but, soon due another feed. Debbie brought some clothes over for him yesterday (Monday) and I have washed them (I always do) and ironed them

No, not you ... As we go through life little expressions are picked up and we maybe don't give a lot of thought as to where they originated ... with the expression 'get knotted' I have to confess I was of the belief it had something to do with rope, wrong! It derives from the term 'knotting' which is what happens when the penis of the dog swell in the virgina of the bitch and they are literally knotted together until he ejaculated and releases the pressure. So, the term actually means .. go fuck a dog. On another subject, our Josh has not been overly happy today. We've checked him over many times, nothing obviously wrong, seems he just wants some attention as he generally calms quite quickly once he gets it. All the same, listening to a baby crying, even for just half an hour or so, is quite traumatic. He's sleeping now but, soon due another feed. Debbie brought some clothes over for him yesterday (Monday) and I have washed them (I always do) and irone

That's how much sleep I got last night, not a lot. Finally got to the doctors earlier ... didn't see one though, I got the practise nurse instead. I have an ear infection, what a shock that is. Of course, they don't read the notes and she had zero interest in my opinion so I have a spray to use ... this may work, it probably won't. As for my throat, yes, she said it looked inflammed but that, there is not can be done except pain relief and it should sort itself ... if it hasn't after a week, go back! I do have some fairly good pain relief here but it barely touches the pain I am getting. I have had much worse in my life though so I can live with it. Am dead tired but, not sleepy. I know I should sleep but, will I? Cleaned the car earlier, that'll be 4 months and one day since we got it, that's a lot of dirt! Can't say it drives any better though. Everyone else has gone to bed, I wonder if the dishwasher, the washing machine and the tumble dryer have been

That's how much sleep I got last night, not a lot. Finally got to the doctors earlier ... didn't see one though, I got the practise nurse instead. I have an ear infection, what a shock that is. Of course, they don't read the notes and she had zero interest in my opinion so I have a spray to use ... this may work, it probably won't. As for my throat, yes, she said it looked inflammed but that, there is not can be done except pain relief and it should sort itself ... if it hasn't after a week, go back! I do have some fairly good pain relief here but it barely touches the pain I am getting. I have had much worse in my life though so I can live with it. Am dead tired but, not sleepy. I know I should sleep but, will I? Cleaned the car earlier, that'll be 4 months and one day since we got it, that's a lot of dirt! Can't say it drives any better though. Everyone else has gone to bed, I wonder if the dishwasher, the washing machine and the tumble dryer

So, How is it? Well, it is sort of Vista only different. Effectively many of the cool features of a Mac and Linux have been plonked into W7. Many features I have been using little utilities for over the years are in too, 'New Folder' seems to be an option almost everywhere. Sharing, should everyone in the house happen to have W7, is also a lot easier and more secure. I found with Vista there was just no controlling it. It'd say a folder was shared but it obviously wasn't. W7 also seems to accept that the owner of the PC is almost certainly the one with the admin rights. Vista has an annoying habit of telling someone they don't have access rights to this and that and it's a bugger to get them, W7 tells you there are no access rights but then says, if you want to press OK, it'll give them to you, how neat is that? Many features I still have not yet explored but another I like is the new themed styles. Again, what used to be a utility is now part of W7 and has

So, How is it? Well, it is sort of Vista only different. Effectively many of the cool features of a Mac and Linux have been plonked into W7. Many features I have been using little utilities for over the years are in too, 'New Folder' seems to be an option almost everywhere. Sharing, should everyone in the house happen to have W7, is also a lot easier and more secure. I found with Vista there was just no controlling it. It'd say a folder was shared but it obviously wasn't. W7 also seems to accept that the owner of the PC is almost certainly the one with the admin rights. Vista has an annoying habit of telling someone they don't have access rights to this and that and it's a bugger to get them, W7 tells you there are no access rights but then says, if you want to press OK, it'll give them to you, how neat is that? Many features I still have not yet explored but another I like is the new themed styles. Again, what used to be a utility is now part of W7

I have started the process of setting up my new PC, knackered already and Windows 7 is one hell of a learning curve!

I have started the process of setting up my new PC, knackered already and Windows 7 is one hell of a learning curve!

I was in a rush earlier so I did not get the chance to fully clarify this blog. The idea was that I had somewhere to write down my thoughts as I had them because, by writing them down I purge them from my system. To be honest, and I am, people around me don't always want to hear what is troubling me, they have issues of their own. Who reads this? Well, virtually no one if truth be known. There are a select group of people who get it in their email, some half a dozen, all people who know me. There are some who know my but just check in now and then. What there also are, and this is where there are issues, are people who have been told it exists, local people, who read it to grab snippets from it out of context for whatever reason. It is that latter group I have had trouble with in the past and will continue to have trouble with for one good reason ... they simply miss the point of this blog. Were it posted on the BBC website then there could be a very good argument for getting upset

I was in a rush earlier so I did not get the chance to fully clarify this blog. The idea was that I had somewhere to write down my thoughts as I had them because, by writing them down I purge them from my system. To be honest, and I am, people around me don't always want to hear what is troubling me, they have issues of their own. Who reads this? Well, virtually no one if truth be known. There are a select group of people who get it in their email, some half a dozen, all people who know me. There are some who know my but just check in now and then. What there also are, and this is where there are issues, are people who have been told it exists, local people, who read it to grab snippets from it out of context for whatever reason. It is that latter group I have had trouble with in the past and will continue to have trouble with for one good reason ... they simply miss the point of this blog. Were it posted on the BBC website then there could be a very good argument for getting u

This blog is written live, not several weeks after the event so, anything read must be read in context with events at the time and date it was written. This may mean that several weeks later I may feel totally differently about an event or person than I did at the time of writing and, maybe wrongly, I don't always write when that change happens. I am going to quickly go back on one thing I wrote recently and this is going to be the very last time because I feel it is important because of recent events ... I do not hate James, I forgive James for his outburst of a couple of weeks ago, I do not hold grudges. I cannot yet fully trust James not to go there again but, I very much want to. Some horrible things have been said and done this past year, many will have been mentioned here. They are in the past. I would very much like them to stay there.

This blog is written live, not several weeks after the event so, anything read must be read in context with events at the time and date it was written. This may mean that several weeks later I may feel totally differently about an event or person than I did at the time of writing and, maybe wrongly, I don't always write when that change happens. I am going to quickly go back on one thing I wrote recently and this is going to be the very last time because I feel it is important because of recent events ... I do not hate James, I forgive James for his outburst of a couple of weeks ago, I do not hold grudges. I cannot yet fully trust James not to go there again but, I very much want to. Some horrible things have been said and done this past year, many will have been mentioned here. They are in the past. I would very much like them to stay there.

Today, I keep being reminded, is 'Monday' ... actually, it is 00:52 on Tuesday morning right now but you get my meaning. Why is that significant? Well, it is if I have things to do on Wednesday and try to do them on Tuesday because I think Monday is Tuesday making Tuesday Wednesday. I have a sore throat, yeah, you know, it kinda hurts but pain killers seem to settle it ... I ache like hell as well, that could be the results of the flu jab Saturday ...  also have an ear infection, I really should get that sorted ... watch this space, I shall forget all week and remember at the weekend! Earlier, I bent over to sort out the dishwasher and puked, this is not good. his blog has seen the last negative entry regarding James ... I think Ihave been using this space to defend myself against untruths which have been shared but, in reality, it is now pissing me off all this tit for tat sort of stuff. Fom now on I am going to presume that people know me well enough to know the truth and, if

Today, I keep being reminded, is 'Monday' ... actually, it is 00:52 on Tuesday morning right now but you get my meaning. Why is that significant? Well, it is if I have things to do on Wednesday and try to do them on Tuesday because I think Monday is Tuesday making Tuesday Wednesday. I have a sore throat, yeah, you know, it kinda hurts but pain killers seem to settle it ... I ache like hell as well, that could be the results of the flu jab Saturday ...  also have an ear infection, I really should get that sorted ... watch this space, I shall forget all week and remember at the weekend! Earlier, I bent over to sort out the dishwasher and puked, this is not good. his blog has seen the last negative entry regarding James ... I think Ihave been using this space to defend myself against untruths which have been shared but, in reality, it is now pissing me off all this tit for tat sort of stuff. Fom now on I am going to presume that people know me well enough to know the truth a

Spent money! I decided that if I am to be the maker of the family archive in the moving image sense then I need a machine which can handle the latest technology and enable me to actually edit raw footage! I mean, we got back from Florida months ago and still there is no home movie to watch ... I have a backlog now of video to edit and it's just not good enough ... I know what I want to do but this machine just won't do it ... grr. So, today I ordered my next PC and a new monitor to go with it, a bigger one so I don't have to sit so darned close either! That this new machine can, coincidentally play games at the highest spec possible is neither here nor there! One slight issue, it is black and red and I just can't see how that is going to work in here. I think I may wanna sleep soon but, I have gotten so used to late nights I don't quite yet feel exhausted enough to settle. Why is it I always have this urge to play my keyboard really loud just as everyone else goes t

Spent money! I decided that if I am to be the maker of the family archive in the moving image sense then I need a machine which can handle the latest technology and enable me to actually edit raw footage! I mean, we got back from Florida months ago and still there is no home movie to watch ... I have a backlog now of video to edit and it's just not good enough ... I know what I want to do but this machine just won't do it ... grr. So, today I ordered my next PC and a new monitor to go with it, a bigger one so I don't have to sit so darned close either! That this new machine can, coincidentally play games at the highest spec possible is neither here nor there! One slight issue, it is black and red and I just can't see how that is going to work in here. I think I may wanna sleep soon but, I have gotten so used to late nights I don't quite yet feel exhausted enough to settle. Why is it I always have this urge to play my keyboard really loud just as everyone