Steve from England

T is the S eason to be J olly To all my friends and family, where ever you may be. I am sending my love and thought to you on this day, as I do on many others that you may relax, smile and think of everything which is right in your world. If I didn’t say it recently, I L ove Y ou This past year has been a challenge for me but, like most years which cause me pain, I am rising above it. If you don’t have the strength to do that, you know where I am, I shall find it for both of us. May this day being you everything you want and might you get some awesome gifts as well because, all any of us really want is hugs, love and appreciation, anything else is just a nice bonus. In just a few days 2012 will be replaced by 2013, spend that time, when you are sober enough, to rationalise this year, take the best bits and hold them close and store the bad in that special place we bury such things in our minds when we need to move on. There is no physical gift which can mean more to me right no

T is the S eason to be J olly To all my friends and family, where ever you may be. I am sending my love and thought to you on this day, as I do on many others that you may relax, smile and think of everything which is right in your world. If I didn’t say it recently, I L ove Y ou This past year has been a challenge for me but, like most years which cause me pain, I am rising above it. If you don’t have the strength to do that, you know where I am, I shall find it for both of us. May this day being you everything you want and might you get some awesome gifts as well because, all any of us really want is hugs, love and appreciation, anything else is just a nice bonus. In just a few days 2012 will be replaced by 2013, spend that time, when you are sober enough, to rationalise this year, take the best bits and hold them close and store the bad in that special place we bury such things in our minds when we need to move on. There is no physical gift which can mean more to me right no

I’ve had some issues the past few weeks/months but, things are moving up now. I still have some changes to make but I don’t think the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train, with any luck it’s a really cute guy with a really big …. torch. Need to get back to the gym, do some CV, do some weights and possibly swimming.

I’ve had some issues the past few weeks/months but, things are moving up now. I still have some changes to make but I don’t think the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train, with any luck it’s a really cute guy with a really big …. torch. Need to get back to the gym, do some CV, do some weights and possibly swimming.

I’m gonna be honest, I am not coping well, I have not been coping well for quite some time. Right now my life, and I mean no disrespect to those I love but, my life feels horrible. I feel like, and it’s probably just because of how I am feeling, that, most of my friends just don’t want to know. I want to be able to do ordinary stuff, just going out to chill, drink, dance or whatever yet, in a way, I feel almost as though I am being looked after. It’s really hard reading about one friend after another who goes out with ‘their’ mates having a great time doing this or that and yet, I don’t get an invite, I am not on the ‘A’ list or I am too old or too depressed or too whatever. I am trying to get older friends but they either don’t have time or don’t want to go out anywhere which leaves me with family and, obviously I love my family but, it’s not the same as being with non family friends. I am just about remembering what going out and actually having fun is, it’s really been that long a

I’m gonna be honest, I am not coping well, I have not been coping well for quite some time. Right now my life, and I mean no disrespect to those I love but, my life feels horrible. I feel like, and it’s probably just because of how I am feeling, that, most of my friends just don’t want to know. I want to be able to do ordinary stuff, just going out to chill, drink, dance or whatever yet, in a way, I feel almost as though I am being looked after. It’s really hard reading about one friend after another who goes out with ‘their’ mates having a great time doing this or that and yet, I don’t get an invite, I am not on the ‘A’ list or I am too old or too depressed or too whatever. I am trying to get older friends but they either don’t have time or don’t want to go out anywhere which leaves me with family and, obviously I love my family but, it’s not the same as being with non family friends. I am just about remembering what going out and actually having fun is, it’s really been that long a

My last update was way back on October 17th, that’s like, ages ago! Since then I have finalised the issue with Northamptonshire Carers. I don’t think they care what they do but, that’s up to them, I am happy that my experience with them is now over and, whilst I regret wasting 3 years of my life volunteering for them, I do appreciate that there are some very genuine, decent and caring people who work there who do benefit other carers. That’s the last word on that lot. These are the photography exhibits since the last update   So, a fair selection of picture taking. Only one of those sessions where I felt a little used and abused but, that’s the rough with the smooth! Robin has been getting his heart sorted which, after his stents, should now be OK for some time so, that’s good news. I had a lovely weekend away with Don down in Brighton and didn’t take any pictures, how bad am I! Finally had the surgery on my eye so that’s all sorted now. I have ordered my new glasses

My last update was way back on October 17th, that’s like, ages ago! Since then I have finalised the issue with Northamptonshire Carers. I don’t think they care what they do but, that’s up to them, I am happy that my experience with them is now over and, whilst I regret wasting 3 years of my life volunteering for them, I do appreciate that there are some very genuine, decent and caring people who work there who do benefit other carers. That’s the last word on that lot. These are the photography exhibits since the last update   So, a fair selection of picture taking. Only one of those sessions where I felt a little used and abused but, that’s the rough with the smooth! Robin has been getting his heart sorted which, after his stents, should now be OK for some time so, that’s good news. I had a lovely weekend away with Don down in Brighton and didn’t take any pictures, how bad am I! Finally had the surgery on my eye so that’s all sorted now. I have ordered my new glasses