Steve from England

I have this need for adult company and yes, dare I say it, a little sex too. I can live without of course, I normally do! It's taken the best part of a week but I am just about back to normal now whatever that may be cos I sure as hell don't know. Trying to make plans for the future but not quite sure my head is quite that sorted as yet. Looked into possible holidays for next year with the kids, nothing is grabbing my fancy right now even if I had a healthy discount off it it still seems expensive. I have countless weekends I need to arrange with Gary and Tom, something with Jason up in Hull if we can ever sort it out. This week I am off to Yorkshire with the kids to see Stan for a few days. I am meeting up with Si some time next month too up in Manchester and for that I think I shall need to reschedule a meeting I'd arranged but not a problem. That'll be June done and then I can panic about Pink Punting. That currently stands at 148 interested but I know from Tony'

I have this need for adult company and yes, dare I say it, a little sex too. I can live without of course, I normally do! It's taken the best part of a week but I am just about back to normal now whatever that may be cos I sure as hell don't know. Trying to make plans for the future but not quite sure my head is quite that sorted as yet. Looked into possible holidays for next year with the kids, nothing is grabbing my fancy right now even if I had a healthy discount off it it still seems expensive. I have countless weekends I need to arrange with Gary and Tom, something with Jason up in Hull if we can ever sort it out. This week I am off to Yorkshire with the kids to see Stan for a few days. I am meeting up with Si some time next month too up in Manchester and for that I think I shall need to reschedule a meeting I'd arranged but not a problem. That'll be June done and then I can panic about Pink Punting. That currently stands at 148 interested but I know from Tony'

My apologies, it seems I have done some confusing with my last entry and given the impression that what I am hoping will happen is, indeed, reality. Sadly, the news on Jermaine is still bad. He's still having 24/7 seizures, increased brain damage and it will kill him. There is just a small chance of some drugs that may control it but no cure :-(

My apologies, it seems I have done some confusing with my last entry and given the impression that what I am hoping will happen is, indeed, reality. Sadly, the news on Jermaine is still bad. He's still having 24/7 seizures, increased brain damage and it will kill him. There is just a small chance of some drugs that may control it but no cure :-(

Had my rheumatology appointment earlier but the results of the blood tests were inconclusive which is really annoying. The only conclusion the consultant had was that I probably have arthritis but she is not sure which one and there was just a slight chance that my problems may just be as a result of the virus I had last October and if it is, it should be gone by the autumn. I'm hopeful of the latter but suspect I may not be so lucky but what a wonderful thing to happen. Get my throat declared 'all clear' (please) and discover I don't have arthritis but just the aftershock of a very nasty virus. Just after I find that out I am going to decide what to spend my lottery winnings on! But seriously, fingers crossed. Add one more, Jermaine is not as bad as they thought at first and they have a cure. 2006 has the potential to be a very emotional year one way or another. Still, there is light on the horizon, a candle at the end of the log flume. I am meeting with Simon next mon

Had my rheumatology appointment earlier but the results of the blood tests were inconclusive which is really annoying. The only conclusion the consultant had was that I probably have arthritis but she is not sure which one and there was just a slight chance that my problems may just be as a result of the virus I had last October and if it is, it should be gone by the autumn. I'm hopeful of the latter but suspect I may not be so lucky but what a wonderful thing to happen. Get my throat declared 'all clear' (please) and discover I don't have arthritis but just the aftershock of a very nasty virus. Just after I find that out I am going to decide what to spend my lottery winnings on! But seriously, fingers crossed. Add one more, Jermaine is not as bad as they thought at first and they have a cure. 2006 has the potential to be a very emotional year one way or another. Still, there is light on the horizon, a candle at the end of the log flume. I am meeting with Simon next mon

Apologies for not posting ‘part 2’ as promised. I have decided it isn’t quite ready. Yesterday I visited Chalfont where Jermaine currently lives. I’m not going to go into large explanations of how I feel, just give the facts as anyone that knows me will know how I feel and anyone that doesn’t can imagine well enough. Speaking to the consultant it appears that a recent EEG showed constant epilepsy within his head. In other words, Jermaine’s life is one long seizure. The doctor was quite blunt about it and I prefer that. He said that this level of activity is doing rapid and permanent damage to his brain and will eventually kill him and that is assuming that he doesn’t just have one last massive seizure than kills him anyway. In short, he gave the impression that Jermaine’s life expectancy is not going to be measured in a great many years. I think he was preparing me for something much sooner but only time will clarify that. With this new information it is now reasonabl

Apologies for not posting ‘part 2’ as promised. I have decided it isn’t quite ready. Yesterday I visited Chalfont where Jermaine currently lives. I’m not going to go into large explanations of how I feel, just give the facts as anyone that knows me will know how I feel and anyone that doesn’t can imagine well enough. Speaking to the consultant it appears that a recent EEG showed constant epilepsy within his head. In other words, Jermaine’s life is one long seizure. The doctor was quite blunt about it and I prefer that. He said that this level of activity is doing rapid and permanent damage to his brain and will eventually kill him and that is assuming that he doesn’t just have one last massive seizure than kills him anyway. In short, he gave the impression that Jermaine’s life expectancy is not going to be measured in a great many years. I think he was preparing me for something much sooner but only time will clarify that. With this new information it is now reasonabl

Not the Only Poof in the Gatwick Village Memoirs of a Gran Canaria Vacation Gran Canaria is one of those places that was nothing (and some would say still is) and yet is now a bustling tourist resort for that all year round holiday experience …. Well, that’s what the brochures say but who believes what they read in a brochure … yes, most holidaymakers! The reality is, the island is extremely variable both in weather and how many people visit. It’s fair to say that a July or August visit is going to be very hot with unbroken sunshine and wall to wall families, screaming brats and yobs. The winter months, for those of us further north, will be reasonably busy but with the more affluent as prices sky rocket when the comparative temperatures between the UK and the Canaries is huge. That said, it is not to be assumed that one can have sunshine every day in February, that’s a choice of the good Lady Luck. When I went was May, the heterosexual nightmare and gay paradise mon

Not the Only Poof in the Gatwick Village Memoirs of a Gran Canaria Vacation Gran Canaria is one of those places that was nothing (and some would say still is) and yet is now a bustling tourist resort for that all year round holiday experience …. Well, that’s what the brochures say but who believes what they read in a brochure … yes, most holidaymakers! The reality is, the island is extremely variable both in weather and how many people visit. It’s fair to say that a July or August visit is going to be very hot with unbroken sunshine and wall to wall families, screaming brats and yobs. The winter months, for those of us further north, will be reasonably busy but with the more affluent as prices sky rocket when the comparative temperatures between the UK and the Canaries is huge. That said, it is not to be assumed that one can have sunshine every day in February, that’s a choice of the good Lady Luck. When I went was May, the heterosexual nightmare and gay paradise mon

What you will see in the coming days is a huge great piece with emotion, comedy and something which may or many not qualify as a poem. I'll add some pictures too just to get you in the spirit of things. Part 2 of 'Be Careful What You Wish For' has been totally written all over so I'll post that too. It's good to be back and I look forward to all the catch up I need to do over the next few days!

What you will see in the coming days is a huge great piece with emotion, comedy and something which may or many not qualify as a poem. I'll add some pictures too just to get you in the spirit of things. Part 2 of 'Be Careful What You Wish For' has been totally written all over so I'll post that too. It's good to be back and I look forward to all the catch up I need to do over the next few days!

I am a little upset, I forgot earlier to say goodbye to Zoey properly, I mean, do the reminding her that I was not going to be here tomorrow when she comes home thing and I am worried she may be upset Maybe I shall call her in the morning. If I am honest, I am also going to miss the kids terribly. We have got really close this past year since I have been totally on my own and not having them around is just going to feel so empty, I love them so much. There are all sorts of stupid things going through my mind right now ... I shall miss being able to do stuff on my PC ... watch an episode of Voyager when I want to, go online, just chat to mates on MSN. That is part of my routine now but, well, the new routine of relaxing, eating and drinking crap beer won't be so terrible either. Right now I am sampling the delights of 103 ... this I am doing safe in the knowledge that I am about to go get myself in proximity to a new supply ... yay! Just checked my hair ... oh boy, I suspect that

I am a little upset, I forgot earlier to say goodbye to Zoey properly, I mean, do the reminding her that I was not going to be here tomorrow when she comes home thing and I am worried she may be upset Maybe I shall call her in the morning. If I am honest, I am also going to miss the kids terribly. We have got really close this past year since I have been totally on my own and not having them around is just going to feel so empty, I love them so much. There are all sorts of stupid things going through my mind right now ... I shall miss being able to do stuff on my PC ... watch an episode of Voyager when I want to, go online, just chat to mates on MSN. That is part of my routine now but, well, the new routine of relaxing, eating and drinking crap beer won't be so terrible either. Right now I am sampling the delights of 103 ... this I am doing safe in the knowledge that I am about to go get myself in proximity to a new supply ... yay! Just checked my hair ... oh boy, I suspect that

I could do a blog entry from Gran Canaria and I may but it won't be something I'd see as an obligation, more what I would do if I was getting really pissed off or something really special had happened ... don't expect anything! For a few hours there things collapsed with regards to my plans for the holiday. It was good in a way as it showed me just how important it was to me, how much I need the break but also how much I need to have this divider to take me on to a different level, a new stage in my life. Pete & Stan have offered to help me out there and I'll most likely take them up on it but it requires a visit up there (always great) just so I can see what it really entails but also because I'd hate to let them down in any way. If I don't think I am up to the task then I'll say so. For my last meal at home I thought I would cook something different so we are having Jambalaya. I am particarly proud of my version of it though I may have made it just a

I could do a blog entry from Gran Canaria and I may but it won't be something I'd see as an obligation, more what I would do if I was getting really pissed off or something really special had happened ... don't expect anything! For a few hours there things collapsed with regards to my plans for the holiday. It was good in a way as it showed me just how important it was to me, how much I need the break but also how much I need to have this divider to take me on to a different level, a new stage in my life. Pete & Stan have offered to help me out there and I'll most likely take them up on it but it requires a visit up there (always great) just so I can see what it really entails but also because I'd hate to let them down in any way. If I don't think I am up to the task then I'll say so. For my last meal at home I thought I would cook something different so we are having Jambalaya. I am particarly proud of my version of it though I may have made it just a