Steve from England

Much of today I have had a stress related headache. I think I am just having to do too many different things for too many people on demand. Whilst I would wish to be capable of doing so I think my body is telling me to calm down and ease off the throttle a little. It is time for those around me to be doing some more of their own thinking and decision making, taking responsibility for their own actions rather than seeking to either ignore the issues or place the burden of responsibility upon me. My natural inclination is to be all things to all people but it's not happening. In trying to do so I am losing myself. If I should seem detached from what I perceive to be the little issues or suggest strongly that someone sort a problem themselves, I do expect that to happen. I will be there for the big things that people really need my help with but as many around me are seeking my input with matters I know they can deal with themselves I am asking them to do so to allow me to regain some...

Much of today I have had a stress related headache. I think I am just having to do too many different things for too many people on demand. Whilst I would wish to be capable of doing so I think my body is telling me to calm down and ease off the throttle a little. It is time for those around me to be doing some more of their own thinking and decision making, taking responsibility for their own actions rather than seeking to either ignore the issues or place the burden of responsibility upon me. My natural inclination is to be all things to all people but it's not happening. In trying to do so I am losing myself. If I should seem detached from what I perceive to be the little issues or suggest strongly that someone sort a problem themselves, I do expect that to happen. I will be there for the big things that people really need my help with but as many around me are seeking my input with matters I know they can deal with themselves I am asking them to do so to allow me to regain some...

Ann is the result of a BET and not a 'bed' as I previously wrote!

Ann is the result of a BET and not a 'bed' as I previously wrote!

Well, it was Kerry which didn't lead to Zispy (sadly) then rapidly on to Tracy who exited for Becky who, as last I heard, was superseded by Ann. Ann is the result of a bed with, I think, Lucy that both he and she could get a significant other whilst getting drunk on rum ... not my idea of a romantic first date but hey, I am old and I know nothing of modern courtship. Money is clearly dripping through certain fingers leaving an already zero balance somewhat less than zero with no hope of recovery. A passport is something, apparently, to prove responsibility with. If it can be carried all over the place within a bag at day and night and kept safe then one is responsible. If it should go missing then failure is declared. Of course, this boring old fart would say that proof of responsibility would be to keep a passport in a safe but again, I am old and what do I know of such things? The Sebring, I am told, is still awaiting a part from the US which was promised for one week ago but now...

Well, it was Kerry which didn't lead to Zispy (sadly) then rapidly on to Tracy who exited for Becky who, as last I heard, was superseded by Ann. Ann is the result of a bed with, I think, Lucy that both he and she could get a significant other whilst getting drunk on rum ... not my idea of a romantic first date but hey, I am old and I know nothing of modern courtship. Money is clearly dripping through certain fingers leaving an already zero balance somewhat less than zero with no hope of recovery. A passport is something, apparently, to prove responsibility with. If it can be carried all over the place within a bag at day and night and kept safe then one is responsible. If it should go missing then failure is declared. Of course, this boring old fart would say that proof of responsibility would be to keep a passport in a safe but again, I am old and what do I know of such things? The Sebring, I am told, is still awaiting a part from the US which was promised for one week ago but now...

In case anyone does not realise that the word 'this' needs to be hovered over to get the link ... this is the full thing: http://www.dizzyqueen.net/writing.htm

In case anyone does not realise that the word 'this' needs to be hovered over to get the link ... this is the full thing: http://www.dizzyqueen.net/writing.htm

I have been editing some websites today as they were looking a little tired. I got to reading some of my writings and they are really not that bad. If you have not yet seen some of the stuff that whirls around my brain, go take a look at this and let me know what you think. I am still awaiting the illusive day with not much to do. Today was going to be one like there whereby we just wandered down town, chilled out a little then came home and flopped. Never happened that way as I spent a couple of hours on the phone and writing email and about Jermaine's impending move and getting things sorted in writing before it all happens. Still no sign of the V5 as yet but, no matter, I don't have any date for the car either. I did manage to save myself some cash on the motor insurance though and get a better deal on breakdown cover. I joined an American car owners club in the UK for £30 and that saved me £60 on the insurance which more than covered the cost of the membership plus the sav...

I have been editing some websites today as they were looking a little tired. I got to reading some of my writings and they are really not that bad. If you have not yet seen some of the stuff that whirls around my brain, go take a look at this and let me know what you think. I am still awaiting the illusive day with not much to do. Today was going to be one like there whereby we just wandered down town, chilled out a little then came home and flopped. Never happened that way as I spent a couple of hours on the phone and writing email and about Jermaine's impending move and getting things sorted in writing before it all happens. Still no sign of the V5 as yet but, no matter, I don't have any date for the car either. I did manage to save myself some cash on the motor insurance though and get a better deal on breakdown cover. I joined an American car owners club in the UK for £30 and that saved me £60 on the insurance which more than covered the cost of the membership plus the sav...

Christine at the DVLA in Swansea got one of her colleagues to call me this morning. When I spoke to her last week she said she would monitor my case and call me with any developments but, let's face it, who believes that anyone is true to their word any more? But, obviously she was because her colleague called to let me know that Christine was off today but before she left last night she'd seen the V5 had arrived from the previous owner and processed a new V5 for me straight away which should be with me either late this week or early next week ... that is absolutely amazing and I thanked the called very much and asked for my gratitude to be passed on to Christine. What this means is that all I am waiting for is the car to be repaired and get through the MOT then I am on the road. I spoke to Neville at the garage and he remains confident that it will all be done in the next couple of weeks. Fingers crossed it all goes smoothly from now on and I can go on holiday relaxed in the k...

Christine at the DVLA in Swansea got one of her colleagues to call me this morning. When I spoke to her last week she said she would monitor my case and call me with any developments but, let's face it, who believes that anyone is true to their word any more? But, obviously she was because her colleague called to let me know that Christine was off today but before she left last night she'd seen the V5 had arrived from the previous owner and processed a new V5 for me straight away which should be with me either late this week or early next week ... that is absolutely amazing and I thanked the called very much and asked for my gratitude to be passed on to Christine. What this means is that all I am waiting for is the car to be repaired and get through the MOT then I am on the road. I spoke to Neville at the garage and he remains confident that it will all be done in the next couple of weeks. Fingers crossed it all goes smoothly from now on and I can go on holiday relaxed in the k...

A year of change. It's the year that Matt got so bad that I became totally sure that he has to move out, as much for his benefit as anyone else. I did a first and bought a car on Ebay. Little did I know how much that decision was to dominate the next few months and threaten my holiday nearly 4 months later Robin moved to Northampton, certainly a good move. Nick moved to his new bed-sit. My body has got huge (for me) Zoey is leaving school in just over a week Jermaine is finally moving to his new flat next month This is only the first half of the year! I like to live life positively but I am also a realist. I would love to say that 2007 part 2 will be plain sailing and one of the happiest times of my life but I have this feeling that something bad is going to happen to really shake this year and I don't get feelings like that often and I so hope I am wrong on it. I feel Matt is hiding a lot from me, that there is something going on in his life which is heading for disaster. All ...

A year of change. It's the year that Matt got so bad that I became totally sure that he has to move out, as much for his benefit as anyone else. I did a first and bought a car on Ebay. Little did I know how much that decision was to dominate the next few months and threaten my holiday nearly 4 months later Robin moved to Northampton, certainly a good move. Nick moved to his new bed-sit. My body has got huge (for me) Zoey is leaving school in just over a week Jermaine is finally moving to his new flat next month This is only the first half of the year! I like to live life positively but I am also a realist. I would love to say that 2007 part 2 will be plain sailing and one of the happiest times of my life but I have this feeling that something bad is going to happen to really shake this year and I don't get feelings like that often and I so hope I am wrong on it. I feel Matt is hiding a lot from me, that there is something going on in his life which is heading for disaster. All ...

When I was a child I was all but ignored, my views existed but were not important in the adult world and other kids soon forgot what I had to say. In my teens I thought I knew enough about everything to state my mind with mature abandon. Adults ignored me or agreed I was an irritation. Those or my age group valued my opinion and did what they wanted to do anyway. Those younger than me thought I knew everything. Which ever they thought, I was sure I must be right because my heart told me so. Now in my 40's young kids think I am a different species, teenagers know everything so what I have to say is just annoying. Those my own age listen to me as do those older ... the scary thing is ... my views are still what my heart tells me is right. I have no more idea if it is right or wrong now than I did when I was 7 yet the power of my age makes it right because I said so. Realising this is one scary thing. It means I have responsibility to think more, to analyse my thoughts and sometimes o...

When I was a child I was all but ignored, my views existed but were not important in the adult world and other kids soon forgot what I had to say. In my teens I thought I knew enough about everything to state my mind with mature abandon. Adults ignored me or agreed I was an irritation. Those or my age group valued my opinion and did what they wanted to do anyway. Those younger than me thought I knew everything. Which ever they thought, I was sure I must be right because my heart told me so. Now in my 40's young kids think I am a different species, teenagers know everything so what I have to say is just annoying. Those my own age listen to me as do those older ... the scary thing is ... my views are still what my heart tells me is right. I have no more idea if it is right or wrong now than I did when I was 7 yet the power of my age makes it right because I said so. Realising this is one scary thing. It means I have responsibility to think more, to analyse my thoughts and sometimes o...

Well, that's what it seems I am supposed to say these days whenever there is a disagreement at home because Daisy and Matt don't want to listen to my point of view, they don't want to just do what I say, no, they are right and I am wrong, that seems to be the order of the day. All too often I am being scammed into thinking I am going senile and not hearing what I am being asked or told. Earlier Matt swears he asked me on the phone if his new mate Pete could come over and stay and I am convinced he just said if it is OK for him to 'come back'. I can't think of any reason why I should have allowed some guy I know nothing about to come back here. Matt has only known the guy a week and on that basis I am supposed to put everyone in this house at some potential risk of whatever. Of course, he could be a lovely guy, I don't know. All I do know because we were never actually introduced, is that he smells of BO (my first impression), that he eats my food and that he...

Well, that's what it seems I am supposed to say these days whenever there is a disagreement at home because Daisy and Matt don't want to listen to my point of view, they don't want to just do what I say, no, they are right and I am wrong, that seems to be the order of the day. All too often I am being scammed into thinking I am going senile and not hearing what I am being asked or told. Earlier Matt swears he asked me on the phone if his new mate Pete could come over and stay and I am convinced he just said if it is OK for him to 'come back'. I can't think of any reason why I should have allowed some guy I know nothing about to come back here. Matt has only known the guy a week and on that basis I am supposed to put everyone in this house at some potential risk of whatever. Of course, he could be a lovely guy, I don't know. All I do know because we were never actually introduced, is that he smells of BO (my first impression), that he eats my food and that he...

Earlier on this evening Matt was mugged (again) walking on a footpath between Kingsheath and Ryehill. Of course the blame is on the chavs that did it but ... walking along a dark footpath, unoverlooked with a bag on his back was just plain stupid as the police told him when they were round. Thankfully the damage is mainly bruising with a head cut which needed to be glued. He also has a huge footprint on his face. Clearly he is in a lot of pain. Though they did take his bag, all they got was his mobile. The bag and all other contents were later recovered by police. We did, at first, think they got his passport and bankers card. Annoyingly the bag didn't arrive back before he'd cancelled the card so he's got to wait on a new one now. The passport being found was a huge relief as that would have cost £66 to replace. I have bought him a replacement phone for £53. I had to use my £20 discount from Virgin to get it that cheap. It's not that I have the money to spare but more ...

Earlier on this evening Matt was mugged (again) walking on a footpath between Kingsheath and Ryehill. Of course the blame is on the chavs that did it but ... walking along a dark footpath, unoverlooked with a bag on his back was just plain stupid as the police told him when they were round. Thankfully the damage is mainly bruising with a head cut which needed to be glued. He also has a huge footprint on his face. Clearly he is in a lot of pain. Though they did take his bag, all they got was his mobile. The bag and all other contents were later recovered by police. We did, at first, think they got his passport and bankers card. Annoyingly the bag didn't arrive back before he'd cancelled the card so he's got to wait on a new one now. The passport being found was a huge relief as that would have cost £66 to replace. I have bought him a replacement phone for £53. I had to use my £20 discount from Virgin to get it that cheap. It's not that I have the money to spare but more ...

http://www.myspace.com/blinkenmissit has been updated to make it look more like this blog. I actually don't much like the look of either but I do the best with what I have to work with! Today I have been feeling quite crap. I did a lot of sleeping just because I had no choice. I have been swelling up quite a lot today as well and not in a good way! Most of my joints are really hot and uncomfortable so I guess sleeping tonight is going to be crap. Trying not to be nervous about getting the car cash paid in but failing miserably and I suspect this is the cause of my physical condition. The truth probably is that I am starting to relax about the whole money thing. If it goes as it looks I may actually have some money in the bank for the holiday spending though only about 3 days worth, the rest goes on the card but better than what I thought was going to happen and going there with a -£1800 bank balance. It seems that I could possibly get most of the things which currently bug me off m...

http://www.myspace.com/blinkenmissit has been updated to make it look more like this blog. I actually don't much like the look of either but I do the best with what I have to work with! Today I have been feeling quite crap. I did a lot of sleeping just because I had no choice. I have been swelling up quite a lot today as well and not in a good way! Most of my joints are really hot and uncomfortable so I guess sleeping tonight is going to be crap. Trying not to be nervous about getting the car cash paid in but failing miserably and I suspect this is the cause of my physical condition. The truth probably is that I am starting to relax about the whole money thing. If it goes as it looks I may actually have some money in the bank for the holiday spending though only about 3 days worth, the rest goes on the card but better than what I thought was going to happen and going there with a -£1800 bank balance. It seems that I could possibly get most of the things which currently bug me off m...

I got a call at 7:30 this morning from the buyer of the car saying he intends to pick-up either Sunday or Monday and pay cash. As the banks won't be open on Sunday I have suggested that if he calls then he bring along two forms of id, one of which must be a drivers licence which I shall copy and hold as guarantee should the money turn out to be fake. Of course, if the guy is clever enough to fake cash a drivers licence and maybe a credit card are not going to be difficult but I guess there has to be some trust in life.

I got a call at 7:30 this morning from the buyer of the car saying he intends to pick-up either Sunday or Monday and pay cash. As the banks won't be open on Sunday I have suggested that if he calls then he bring along two forms of id, one of which must be a drivers licence which I shall copy and hold as guarantee should the money turn out to be fake. Of course, if the guy is clever enough to fake cash a drivers licence and maybe a credit card are not going to be difficult but I guess there has to be some trust in life.

Yesterday the car was sold for £3600 (that would be Weds). I sent the invoice off to the buyer straight off then, about half an hour later he wrote me saying he'd won the car, can I send my address and phone number to him (which I'd already done of course). I did as requested and have heard nothing since and I am concerned about it. Apart from anything else I think it's impolite to get to the check-out and ignore the sales assistant and not get out the wallet, it's just rude. That's what it feels like this guy is doing. I know there could be all sort of reasons for it but it's not the way I work. Let's just hope he contacts me later on today (Thursday) I have someone from the DWP (benefits people) to chat to me about Zoey's benefit's and whether or not she can handle her own affairs. Currently she can't but there may be an occasion when she can so it makes it a little awkward to deal with such matters without her there. John's hair didn't...

Yesterday the car was sold for £3600 (that would be Weds). I sent the invoice off to the buyer straight off then, about half an hour later he wrote me saying he'd won the car, can I send my address and phone number to him (which I'd already done of course). I did as requested and have heard nothing since and I am concerned about it. Apart from anything else I think it's impolite to get to the check-out and ignore the sales assistant and not get out the wallet, it's just rude. That's what it feels like this guy is doing. I know there could be all sort of reasons for it but it's not the way I work. Let's just hope he contacts me later on today (Thursday) I have someone from the DWP (benefits people) to chat to me about Zoey's benefit's and whether or not she can handle her own affairs. Currently she can't but there may be an occasion when she can so it makes it a little awkward to deal with such matters without her there. John's hair didn't...

I have had a wonderful birthday so far today. John has been a star and tried really hard to make things good for me. He got me one of the things off my wish list which I do keep telling myself I am going to stop playing with but it's just so cool I have to keep having a go. It's one of those robo-raptor things and it's just such fun. Zoey gave me some things she took from a book of hers which was really sweet of her. Daisy got me a Discworld novel ... Matt and Zoé got me a t-shirt each with Matt additionally getting me a Spidey potato head. There has been other stuff of course but that's the basics. Robin did me proud with a fantastic meal and wonderfully unhealthy cake. There was a small panic over his car but that was sorted quick enough not to cause a problem. I have been txt'd by 3 people to say happy birthday and got some cards too. Everyone else in the house is doing their own thing now so I thought sitting down at the PC would be a cool thing to do. I sudden...

I have had a wonderful birthday so far today. John has been a star and tried really hard to make things good for me. He got me one of the things off my wish list which I do keep telling myself I am going to stop playing with but it's just so cool I have to keep having a go. It's one of those robo-raptor things and it's just such fun. Zoey gave me some things she took from a book of hers which was really sweet of her. Daisy got me a Discworld novel ... Matt and Zoé got me a t-shirt each with Matt additionally getting me a Spidey potato head. There has been other stuff of course but that's the basics. Robin did me proud with a fantastic meal and wonderfully unhealthy cake. There was a small panic over his car but that was sorted quick enough not to cause a problem. I have been txt'd by 3 people to say happy birthday and got some cards too. Everyone else in the house is doing their own thing now so I thought sitting down at the PC would be a cool thing to do. I sudden...

Had a lovely day yesterday (Saturday) with Nick and Robin combining to take me to Milton Keynes. Nick bought dinner at Nando's and also tickets to see Acorn Antiques which was excellent entertainment. The only annoyances of the day were the guy behind me who sneezed over my back and the people further down our row who thought arriving moments before curtain up at the start and after the interval was a polite thing to do meaning we and some others who got there in good time had to wait around for them then stand for their arrival. Today is birthday eve and it is probably one of my most disliked days of the year as it is generally when I start to see things falling apart. This year is no exception. It took loads of effort to get Daisy motivated to do dinner as she'd promised to do. Matt had to be reminded to clear the garden after his fun of yesterday and someone made a mess of the clean carpet in the lounge which I had to clear a short while ago. Robin is having trouble with hi...

Had a lovely day yesterday (Saturday) with Nick and Robin combining to take me to Milton Keynes. Nick bought dinner at Nando's and also tickets to see Acorn Antiques which was excellent entertainment. The only annoyances of the day were the guy behind me who sneezed over my back and the people further down our row who thought arriving moments before curtain up at the start and after the interval was a polite thing to do meaning we and some others who got there in good time had to wait around for them then stand for their arrival. Today is birthday eve and it is probably one of my most disliked days of the year as it is generally when I start to see things falling apart. This year is no exception. It took loads of effort to get Daisy motivated to do dinner as she'd promised to do. Matt had to be reminded to clear the garden after his fun of yesterday and someone made a mess of the clean carpet in the lounge which I had to clear a short while ago. Robin is having trouble with hi...

Sadly, not at a pace to get the heart pounding but they are moving. The car has had 7 bids on it dragging it up to a staggering £746! Yes, that's right, less than 25% of the true value ... I just have to admire the optimism of those who have thus far put in an offer. Earlier I had a guy with a very strong Brummie accent call me saying how keen he was in buying the car and he meant it to, clearly he'd done his homework. Of course, that's not going to go smoothly as he needs to sell his current car first, a Jag 's' type. He said he'd call tomorrow but I am not holding my breath on that one. Several and I mean, too bloody several companies have called me to sell their services on the pretext of being supplies of buyers ... total bollocks and they get the reply I am in the mood for at the time of calling ... one had the nerve to call back and ask if we got cut off, silly cow. Matt has come home pissed. He didn't get up for work this morning either so it's go...

Sadly, not at a pace to get the heart pounding but they are moving. The car has had 7 bids on it dragging it up to a staggering £746! Yes, that's right, less than 25% of the true value ... I just have to admire the optimism of those who have thus far put in an offer. Earlier I had a guy with a very strong Brummie accent call me saying how keen he was in buying the car and he meant it to, clearly he'd done his homework. Of course, that's not going to go smoothly as he needs to sell his current car first, a Jag 's' type. He said he'd call tomorrow but I am not holding my breath on that one. Several and I mean, too bloody several companies have called me to sell their services on the pretext of being supplies of buyers ... total bollocks and they get the reply I am in the mood for at the time of calling ... one had the nerve to call back and ask if we got cut off, silly cow. Matt has come home pissed. He didn't get up for work this morning either so it's go...