I do so love Mondays.

Today was another one of those ‘network’ meetings that we have for Jermaine with everyone that matters there so that we can achieve great things.

Sadly, the objective of this meeting that of making sure that respite was sorted for this year was not achieved because it takes some people several weeks to do what it takes me a short phone call and a fax to do. So, rather than us having moved on from last time, we are effectively, moving backward!

With that grind of a meeting behind me I was quite pleased to get a call which I hoped was to confirm that I was going off to Gran Canaria next month with loads of friends, my little break to myself this year. Unfortunately, it was nothing of the sort. It turned out to be the friend that asked me along had now changed his mind and now didn’t want me there so my little bit of salvation that I had allowed myself to get excited about, was just pulled from under me but yes, of course I understand, I understand fully how me saying how I hearing that really made me feel would have made them feel awkward and we can’t have emotion getting in the way of decisions after all.

The way I felt was when I was told this news was somewhere between deeply hurt and very angry. Hurt because I really need a break and they would have known that so it showed a total disregard for my feelings and, angry because, if they were not sure, why ask me? I was the worst possible person to have his emotions played about with like that. Oh, I guess I should not place all my friends so highly as to assume they would all avoid hurting me or know me well enough to know that this sort of thing really knocks me down.

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You Bloody Idiot

I had a really enjoyable time in Meltham with Stan and Pete, even that walk against the wind up the pub on Saturday evening in a blizzard was fun. On the way there I thought it’d be fun to take some pictures of the car in the snow. I had not realised just how windy it was, I seriously thought my door was stuck when I tried to open it but it was just being pressurised by the forces outside. I am lucky really the wind had not been behind me else the door would have been ripped off. On the way back on Sunday I paid a visit to Sue in Sheffield. I like Sue and she is a great conversationalist. The journey was not without incident as the satnav kept failing and crashing and just became useless. I eventually tracked the problem down to the loudspeaker connection for the mount and once I’d removed that it was stable and guided me well to Sue’s door. I am really happy to report that the steroid injection I had last week as helped ease my pain. I still have the pain but it is not restricting me ...

2 Weeks in

Amazing as it seems I am two weeks through my visit here. Some might be getting a little confused about why I am here. There is only one important reason and that is to be with Dennis. This isn’t a vacation to me, it’s just about having to travel to the Philippines because it is where Dennis happens to be. I’m still in very regular contact with home dealing with daily issues, the council, social services and so on. I am geographically away from it but technically still connected. Obviously it’s cool to wander into Manila and see the place, travel in a Jeepney and so on. Wandering around the malls is fun but it is who I am with rather than where I am that matters most to me. Highlights for me, apart from every second I spend with Dennis have to be meeting family and friends. Veronica and her family and Imee of course who has kept me entertained for hours with conversation about anything and everything Ireneo too tries real hard wit...

Not a good day

Today is a very emotional one for me. I have no idea why that would be the case but apparently it is. For a day that had nothing pre-arranged this one has turned out quite busy. First, I agreed to take Matt for breakfast though I wasn't really hungry. He was being quite argumentative in the morning about some thing or other, I don't recall what exactly but some matter of politics where he was going to argue the toss whilst knowing little or nothing about it. But, even so, I was quite upbeat as Jermaine had gone to school on time ... no, scrub that, i was upbeat until I yet again had to tell Zoey to get her arse out of her room, downstairs, do her chores and get to school, that is when this day started to go downward. I spent way too much money on a new doorbell, true, we needed one but not one that cost nearly £50! This too has not helped. I went to see a garage that can fit parking sensors to my car, all well and good but they needed me to supply paint to match the circles up ...

Steve from England

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