Steve from England

I have been bugged for months trying to find a different way of creating website … tonight I discovered something that is going to open it all up to me and make my life so much easier in the future. I have the building blocks … now give me another few months to get creative!

I have been bugged for months trying to find a different way of creating website … tonight I discovered something that is going to open it all up to me and make my life so much easier in the future. I have the building blocks … now give me another few months to get creative!

One last chance for the one who feels the need to blame me for everything and swear at me and I really do mean … just the ONE last chance. I don’t want or need it, I have very little to gain from helping out in any way and, it may be better for most concerned, for all I know, if I just stepped away and allowed others to do what they are just gonna do, see what happens.   Got the chance for some quality time with Deej earlier, enjoyed that … about time too.   You know what, I actually said a big fat no to someone too … someone asked me to do them a favour and I thought, you know what, this is my time and Deej’s time. I already help enough people, this is one too many. I am looking to shed trouble, not add to it so, I quite coldly just said, sorry, can’t do that for you, I have things I want to do for me instead. Now, how about that then? Can anyone remember the last time I did that and it really felt good too.   Has everyone seen the latest video of Josh yet? ...

One last chance for the one who feels the need to blame me for everything and swear at me and I really do mean … just the ONE last chance. I don’t want or need it, I have very little to gain from helping out in any way and, it may be better for most concerned, for all I know, if I just stepped away and allowed others to do what they are just gonna do, see what happens.   Got the chance for some quality time with Deej earlier, enjoyed that … about time too.   You know what, I actually said a big fat no to someone too … someone asked me to do them a favour and I thought, you know what, this is my time and Deej’s time. I already help enough people, this is one too many. I am looking to shed trouble, not add to it so, I quite coldly just said, sorry, can’t do that for you, I have things I want to do for me instead. Now, how about that then? Can anyone remember the last time I did that and it really felt good too.   Has everyone seen the latest video of Josh yet? ...

I did get a lay-in (yay) but that is about as far as rest has gone for today.   Apparently I didn’t make good enough arrangements today to go meet someone so they had a shower instead, cost me a fivers worth of fuel for nothing that. As it happens, I’d have not been able to stay long as someone left themselves in an awkward situation which they needed me to sort out for them … I mean, I could have been mean and strung it out a little but, I think they were feeling awkward enough as it was … after that was a short time of nearly relaxing until I checked messages on Facebook and found out someone I am bending over backward to try and help started a message to me along the lines of … “Who the fuck do you think you are?”, charming. Like I have said before, why do some people only ever see the ‘right now’ and ignore everything else … my patience with that person is wearing very thin, very soon I shall not bother and then I think they will see how bad things can get without me workin...

I did get a lay-in (yay) but that is about as far as rest has gone for today.   Apparently I didn’t make good enough arrangements today to go meet someone so they had a shower instead, cost me a fivers worth of fuel for nothing that. As it happens, I’d have not been able to stay long as someone left themselves in an awkward situation which they needed me to sort out for them … I mean, I could have been mean and strung it out a little but, I think they were feeling awkward enough as it was … after that was a short time of nearly relaxing until I checked messages on Facebook and found out someone I am bending over backward to try and help started a message to me along the lines of … “Who the fuck do you think you are?”, charming. Like I have said before, why do some people only ever see the ‘right now’ and ignore everything else … my patience with that person is wearing very thin, very soon I shall not bother and then I think they will see how bad things can get without me workin...

Saturday was a totally shite day for me … I mean, horribly, rock bottomly crap.   For the record, District 9 cost $30m to make, the average Hollywood movie is $150m. That means it was a ‘low budget’ movie. Slumdog Millionaire, was $15m, a very low budget movie.   If I can just agree to go to the eastern district or go to Tesco without objecting, I don’t think it is too much to expect someone may volunteer now and then to make a cup of tea especially as they ate my food as well. When someone annoys me, I don’t pack up my toys and walk away, I try and sort it out calmly, make allowances.   For the record, changing a really shitty nappy in the back of a car in the dark is not easy. That there may have been a slight bit of mess left for later is forgivable and, at the time, I did say he’d need to be sorted at home, that I’d done my best for now. I didn’t have to change the nappy at all and I didn’t need to be slagged off for not getting it just so.   It i...

Saturday was a totally shite day for me … I mean, horribly, rock bottomly crap.   For the record, District 9 cost $30m to make, the average Hollywood movie is $150m. That means it was a ‘low budget’ movie. Slumdog Millionaire, was $15m, a very low budget movie.   If I can just agree to go to the eastern district or go to Tesco without objecting, I don’t think it is too much to expect someone may volunteer now and then to make a cup of tea especially as they ate my food as well. When someone annoys me, I don’t pack up my toys and walk away, I try and sort it out calmly, make allowances.   For the record, changing a really shitty nappy in the back of a car in the dark is not easy. That there may have been a slight bit of mess left for later is forgivable and, at the time, I did say he’d need to be sorted at home, that I’d done my best for now. I didn’t have to change the nappy at all and I didn’t need to be slagged off for not getting it just so.   It i...

I was thinking, seeing as someone mentioned earlier how they' ‘hate’ someone else … do I hate anything? I don’t mean dislike strongly but really   hate? Now, I dislike lots of things, the one thing I detest is lies and liars. Actually, way beneath that is a whole list of things which I dislike that I won’t bother with here. Even my phobia is something I would add to the list of ‘dislike’, I don’t hate it because I know, if I wanted to, and if I tried really hard, I could overcome it and have done on many occasions.   No, hate is something else, it is so strong there can be no solution to it, something so frustratingly, annoyingly, impossibly ‘there’ that it dominates just about every part of my life. When I sat down and thought about it I suddenly came up with a list of things I actually, truly, without any doubt, hated!   These are all parts of the physical me.   I hate wearing glasses … I hate it, I mean, really hate it when everyone else is enjoying so...

I was thinking, seeing as someone mentioned earlier how they' ‘hate’ someone else … do I hate anything? I don’t mean dislike strongly but really   hate? Now, I dislike lots of things, the one thing I detest is lies and liars. Actually, way beneath that is a whole list of things which I dislike that I won’t bother with here. Even my phobia is something I would add to the list of ‘dislike’, I don’t hate it because I know, if I wanted to, and if I tried really hard, I could overcome it and have done on many occasions.   No, hate is something else, it is so strong there can be no solution to it, something so frustratingly, annoyingly, impossibly ‘there’ that it dominates just about every part of my life. When I sat down and thought about it I suddenly came up with a list of things I actually, truly, without any doubt, hated!   These are all parts of the physical me.   I hate wearing glasses … I hate it, I mean, really hate it when everyone else is enjoying so...

Why do people work on relationships which have always been fragile since the outset? I mean, life is a hell of a long time to be placing sticking plasters over an open wound. None of us has to accept a compromise which ever makes us unhappy. If we are truly in love then the compromise and change will be on both sides and will be virtually unnoticed by those concerned. I love my Deej, he's mad but I knew from the first day I met him that it would be years, not months. Some people just should not be together, it is not them both compromising, it is them both arguing all the time. They don’t see what is going right, they are too busy sorting what is wrong. In those cases I’d argue, it’s not the person they value but the idea of a relationship. Seriously, if at least once every day you don’t think how lucky you are to be with this person, don’t bother! If, when you think of getting old or moving to a new town you don’t automatically think of them being with you, i...

Why do people work on relationships which have always been fragile since the outset? I mean, life is a hell of a long time to be placing sticking plasters over an open wound. None of us has to accept a compromise which ever makes us unhappy. If we are truly in love then the compromise and change will be on both sides and will be virtually unnoticed by those concerned. I love my Deej, he's mad but I knew from the first day I met him that it would be years, not months. Some people just should not be together, it is not them both compromising, it is them both arguing all the time. They don’t see what is going right, they are too busy sorting what is wrong. In those cases I’d argue, it’s not the person they value but the idea of a relationship. Seriously, if at least once every day you don’t think how lucky you are to be with this person, don’t bother! If, when you think of getting old or moving to a new town you don’t automatically think of them being with you, i...

There is this group on Facebook, I totally agree and approve. What I also want to add is this … just because a guy fucks up initially doesn’t mean he can’t later make it right. It takes a lot of bravery and effort but, I really think if a guy genuinely makes that lifelong commitment he can still become a daddy too even if he started off as a dick (as the title says)

There is this group on Facebook, I totally agree and approve. What I also want to add is this … just because a guy fucks up initially doesn’t mean he can’t later make it right. It takes a lot of bravery and effort but, I really think if a guy genuinely makes that lifelong commitment he can still become a daddy too even if he started off as a dick (as the title says)

All went down this evening so very few email are getting through and 10 websites are dead in the water! OK, I hope ‘NOT’ in the water else they will never come back! On another note, my ear has not yet cleared up, indeed, it has got worse so I guess I shall have to find time later this week to go to the docs and waste some time. As I am there anyway some time Weds to collect some repeats, it may be a good idea to call for an emergency appointment and get some antibiotics. On yet another subject, earlier on today I was asked if someone was doing the right thing? I am never really totally sure how to answer that sort of question. There are extremes of course, and it depends how close to an extreme each situation is. On the one hand there is the person asking if they are doing the right thing getting a taxi into town when it is raining and they can afford it, the answer is quite straightforward. However, at the other extreme, if someone asks … I am an alcoholic, do you thi...

All went down this evening so very few email are getting through and 10 websites are dead in the water! OK, I hope ‘NOT’ in the water else they will never come back! On another note, my ear has not yet cleared up, indeed, it has got worse so I guess I shall have to find time later this week to go to the docs and waste some time. As I am there anyway some time Weds to collect some repeats, it may be a good idea to call for an emergency appointment and get some antibiotics. On yet another subject, earlier on today I was asked if someone was doing the right thing? I am never really totally sure how to answer that sort of question. There are extremes of course, and it depends how close to an extreme each situation is. On the one hand there is the person asking if they are doing the right thing getting a taxi into town when it is raining and they can afford it, the answer is quite straightforward. However, at the other extreme, if someone asks … I am an alcoholic, do you thi...

Oh dear, ear … I seem to have blown it  :-( Judging by the way it feels and the blood, I think I may be safe to presume my eardrum has gone again in my right ear. Do I want to risk having another operation even assuming they would offer me one? I guess, like always, it’s not the hearing that is the point, it’s the constant infections and with my reduced immunity, I can’t much take the risk. So, I shall give it a few days to settle down and go off to see the doc for a wasted trip because they won’t be able to see anything. That means some spray which won’t do anything so they shall have to send me to the hospital to get it cleaned which will takes weeks. Then they will tell me they can’t do anything because I am only there to have it cleaned but the ear drum is broken so I shall have to see my GP to make an appointment to go back. If I am lucky, I may see someone late summer! I am so glad the NHS works so well.

Oh dear, ear … I seem to have blown it  :-( Judging by the way it feels and the blood, I think I may be safe to presume my eardrum has gone again in my right ear. Do I want to risk having another operation even assuming they would offer me one? I guess, like always, it’s not the hearing that is the point, it’s the constant infections and with my reduced immunity, I can’t much take the risk. So, I shall give it a few days to settle down and go off to see the doc for a wasted trip because they won’t be able to see anything. That means some spray which won’t do anything so they shall have to send me to the hospital to get it cleaned which will takes weeks. Then they will tell me they can’t do anything because I am only there to have it cleaned but the ear drum is broken so I shall have to see my GP to make an appointment to go back. If I am lucky, I may see someone late summer! I am so glad the NHS works so well.

… but the fire is so delightful … Since there’s no place to go … Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow!   Anyway, seems like it’s all over now for this week, -4°C but clear skies. Of course, next week is currently forecast for snow all week.   Just wanted to say, Matt n Anne are great parents, nothing at all to worry about there. No one is perfect with their first baby and anyone who has kids already will know that so, if any new parent takes a while to work out what each cry means it’s totally understandable and acceptable.   I sometimes worry that me staring at Matt or Anne with Immy may make them nervous, that they could think I am somehow judging them. Nothing could be further from my mind. I am just thinking how amazing they look and how much love they have for Immy, I could sit and watch them for hours whether Immy is screaming or not.   Well done you too, Daddy is very proud of both of you.  :-)

… but the fire is so delightful … Since there’s no place to go … Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow!   Anyway, seems like it’s all over now for this week, -4°C but clear skies. Of course, next week is currently forecast for snow all week.   Just wanted to say, Matt n Anne are great parents, nothing at all to worry about there. No one is perfect with their first baby and anyone who has kids already will know that so, if any new parent takes a while to work out what each cry means it’s totally understandable and acceptable.   I sometimes worry that me staring at Matt or Anne with Immy may make them nervous, that they could think I am somehow judging them. Nothing could be further from my mind. I am just thinking how amazing they look and how much love they have for Immy, I could sit and watch them for hours whether Immy is screaming or not.   Well done you too, Daddy is very proud of both of you.  :-)

I am actually totally up to date with the home movies … yay!

I am actually totally up to date with the home movies … yay!

You see, I am all for airport and airline security but, having to be quite literally ‘exposed’ because a metal detector bleeps I am most certainly not in favour of. As I understand it, if someone walks through and they get a bleep then, rather than the traditional ‘pat down’ that we’ve got used to, they will expect them to get into this booth which effectively strip searches. See from the picture above, it doesn’t hide anything. Am I so keen on foreign travel that I am prepared to feel violated? You know what, I really don’t think so no matter how well trained the operative is, we just know these pictures are going to be appearing on the interweb soon enough or on youtube. It only takes one person to sneak them out and, if they do, who is responsible? It is another of those unfortunate things which happens with someone being sent for ‘retraining’ or will there be some serious compensation? I’d like to say, it’ll never happen but it already is at several airports around t...

You see, I am all for airport and airline security but, having to be quite literally ‘exposed’ because a metal detector bleeps I am most certainly not in favour of. As I understand it, if someone walks through and they get a bleep then, rather than the traditional ‘pat down’ that we’ve got used to, they will expect them to get into this booth which effectively strip searches. See from the picture above, it doesn’t hide anything. Am I so keen on foreign travel that I am prepared to feel violated? You know what, I really don’t think so no matter how well trained the operative is, we just know these pictures are going to be appearing on the interweb soon enough or on youtube. It only takes one person to sneak them out and, if they do, who is responsible? It is another of those unfortunate things which happens with someone being sent for ‘retraining’ or will there be some serious compensation? I’d like to say, it’ll never happen but it already is at several airports around t...

34 minutes into this new year and, you know what? I really doesn’t feel a lot different … actually, no different at all! Who are the first non family members I spoke to? Paul … Andy … erm, several other people in the background who I could not quite understand but something about Jack Daniels so it had to be good. The first thing I did this year? Got a lump in my throat cos I suddenly remembered what Midnight on NYE was like when I was a kid, happy times. Mr Random, Josh … yay, he’s funny. Danny, never answers me any more, that’s what distance does for you. Thanks to all those people who sent me a message whose number I don’t have in my phone. I have no idea who you are but it was a nice thought all the same … Right, back to my Spitfire and then, quite possibly, a second JD and Coke (hick)

34 minutes into this new year and, you know what? I really doesn’t feel a lot different … actually, no different at all! Who are the first non family members I spoke to? Paul … Andy … erm, several other people in the background who I could not quite understand but something about Jack Daniels so it had to be good. The first thing I did this year? Got a lump in my throat cos I suddenly remembered what Midnight on NYE was like when I was a kid, happy times. Mr Random, Josh … yay, he’s funny. Danny, never answers me any more, that’s what distance does for you. Thanks to all those people who sent me a message whose number I don’t have in my phone. I have no idea who you are but it was a nice thought all the same … Right, back to my Spitfire and then, quite possibly, a second JD and Coke (hick)