Steve from England

I had what is rare for me today, a day where I didn’t really have to go anywhere! But, just because I didn’t have to, what does that alter? So, a quick trip into Sainsbury’s for a little shopping then home to surf except that on the one day I could spend all day online if I wanted to, the connection didn’t want to cooperate. I did manage to make contact with a young guy I had been trying to talk to for some time and eventually we met up this afternoon and went for a walk over Billing Aquadrome. He was just so cute in so many different ways. Sure, he looked great but he had a really good mind too, spoke sensibly with intelligence and was just interesting. I felt really comfortable with him and he wasn’t just out for a shag either. Weird thing is, he says he doesn’t have many friends, what is wrong with these people! We are planning a trip to Birmingham next week which should hopefully be fun. Managed to speak to social services earlier too … great news, we have secured the one extra day...

I had what is rare for me today, a day where I didn’t really have to go anywhere! But, just because I didn’t have to, what does that alter? So, a quick trip into Sainsbury’s for a little shopping then home to surf except that on the one day I could spend all day online if I wanted to, the connection didn’t want to cooperate. I did manage to make contact with a young guy I had been trying to talk to for some time and eventually we met up this afternoon and went for a walk over Billing Aquadrome. He was just so cute in so many different ways. Sure, he looked great but he had a really good mind too, spoke sensibly with intelligence and was just interesting. I felt really comfortable with him and he wasn’t just out for a shag either. Weird thing is, he says he doesn’t have many friends, what is wrong with these people! We are planning a trip to Birmingham next week which should hopefully be fun. Managed to speak to social services earlier too … great news, we have secured the one extra day...

Did loads of prep for a meeting today and when we turned up, we discover they have changed the focus of the meeting onto something totally different and, worse yet, irrelevant to the point of the matter. So, I spent an age turning it back to the agenda we had set and then found out that they were now needing another meeting to discuss yet another point that should have been included. So, more hard work getting that added to the current agenda so that all aspects are covered when the decision panel looks at the case on July 20! My jumped up little social worker then tells me, after I reminded her she was supposed to update me, which she couldn't arrange anything so we could go on holiday when we need to. Turns out, she didn't actually do anything I could not have done myself. I got a little cross with her. I set her a deadline to have it sorted this week and she said "I suppose I should, I am on holiday for two weeks as of next week" So, I said to her, well, in that ca...

Did loads of prep for a meeting today and when we turned up, we discover they have changed the focus of the meeting onto something totally different and, worse yet, irrelevant to the point of the matter. So, I spent an age turning it back to the agenda we had set and then found out that they were now needing another meeting to discuss yet another point that should have been included. So, more hard work getting that added to the current agenda so that all aspects are covered when the decision panel looks at the case on July 20! My jumped up little social worker then tells me, after I reminded her she was supposed to update me, which she couldn't arrange anything so we could go on holiday when we need to. Turns out, she didn't actually do anything I could not have done myself. I got a little cross with her. I set her a deadline to have it sorted this week and she said "I suppose I should, I am on holiday for two weeks as of next week" So, I said to her, well, in that ca...

Martyndeva on Kagoul as well as other places is a complete and utter twat! The guy is barely out of nappies yet he supposes to tell the rest of us that we don’t understand life, that life is just an illusion, there is no such thing as love, we just create it to make ourselves feel better when we realise we cannot understand someone else, he seems to genuinely believe that he knows the answer to life itself, the man is an idiot of the highest order … and his face is crooked too! I am still trying to get social services to get an extra day sorted for Jermaine to go into respite, the thought of paying £120 more for a week fewer holidays really doesn’t appeal to me and we do so need a holiday even if we can’t afford one! Angry with me for not booking our Disney holiday but there is still time for that one. Also feeling guilty leaving Matt in charge so often. Sure, I can justify it on so many different levels but that doesn’t make it right. It is Zoey’s birthday today. Couldn’t think of any...

Martyndeva on Kagoul as well as other places is a complete and utter twat! The guy is barely out of nappies yet he supposes to tell the rest of us that we don’t understand life, that life is just an illusion, there is no such thing as love, we just create it to make ourselves feel better when we realise we cannot understand someone else, he seems to genuinely believe that he knows the answer to life itself, the man is an idiot of the highest order … and his face is crooked too! I am still trying to get social services to get an extra day sorted for Jermaine to go into respite, the thought of paying £120 more for a week fewer holidays really doesn’t appeal to me and we do so need a holiday even if we can’t afford one! Angry with me for not booking our Disney holiday but there is still time for that one. Also feeling guilty leaving Matt in charge so often. Sure, I can justify it on so many different levels but that doesn’t make it right. It is Zoey’s birthday today. Couldn’t think of any...

The guy from 7 years ago is still as cute as hell but I don’t think he has any interest in me perhaps as anything other than a friend, that’s fine, I had a feeling I was on a loser there but we have to hope sometimes! This said, should I be totally wrong on that one, that is not a mistake I cannot live with! Jermaine has been shitting again and had a seizure that Matt had to deal with earlier, not really fair, I think Matt needs a break. Still not booked any holidays, I must be totally mad! I think I have been judging the guy in Aylesbury too harshly. I guess I am not very keen on letting the good ones get away. Went to London today to meet someone and have some pictures taken. No idea what the pictures are like of course, I have not seen them yet. Friday was fun, nice to meet lots of people I have not seen for a while and some I have not met at all. Strange situation when I stayed overnight but not going to talk about that here. Having problems with a close friends and misjudging sign...

The guy from 7 years ago is still as cute as hell but I don’t think he has any interest in me perhaps as anything other than a friend, that’s fine, I had a feeling I was on a loser there but we have to hope sometimes! This said, should I be totally wrong on that one, that is not a mistake I cannot live with! Jermaine has been shitting again and had a seizure that Matt had to deal with earlier, not really fair, I think Matt needs a break. Still not booked any holidays, I must be totally mad! I think I have been judging the guy in Aylesbury too harshly. I guess I am not very keen on letting the good ones get away. Went to London today to meet someone and have some pictures taken. No idea what the pictures are like of course, I have not seen them yet. Friday was fun, nice to meet lots of people I have not seen for a while and some I have not met at all. Strange situation when I stayed overnight but not going to talk about that here. Having problems with a close friends and misjudging sign...

I allowed 1 hour and 30 minutes extra to get to Gatwick for 9:00 thinking that was plenty of leeway to cover even our crap roads … I was wrong! Robin was a star fighting through the traffic but there were so many hold-ups there was really nothing he could do. We turned up just about 15 minutes after we should have and the queues were horrendous. It took an age to get through check-in and then quite some time to get through security. By the time we finally got through we were already being called to the gate so our breakfast was out of the window and by now, we were all getting a little hungry. We grabbed some sandwiches from a vendor for the price of what we would get used to paying for a full meal and drinks for all of us in Gran Canaria and ate them en route to the gate which seemed to be somewhere just outside Brighton! Irony is a cruel thing and we discovered there was a slight delay on our flight but only after we arrived! We could have had breakfast after all. The flight was a fa...

I allowed 1 hour and 30 minutes extra to get to Gatwick for 9:00 thinking that was plenty of leeway to cover even our crap roads … I was wrong! Robin was a star fighting through the traffic but there were so many hold-ups there was really nothing he could do. We turned up just about 15 minutes after we should have and the queues were horrendous. It took an age to get through check-in and then quite some time to get through security. By the time we finally got through we were already being called to the gate so our breakfast was out of the window and by now, we were all getting a little hungry. We grabbed some sandwiches from a vendor for the price of what we would get used to paying for a full meal and drinks for all of us in Gran Canaria and ate them en route to the gate which seemed to be somewhere just outside Brighton! Irony is a cruel thing and we discovered there was a slight delay on our flight but only after we arrived! We could have had breakfast after all. The flight was a fa...

OK, I have had it with men, they are all bastards! I always wanted to say that but it’s not true! The guy from 7 years ago is still as cute as hell but I don’t think he has any interest in me perhaps as anything other than a friend, that’s fine, I had a feeling I was on a loser there but we have to hope sometimes! Jermaine is still shitting all over the place and it’s becoming real tiring, the cats manage to shit in the right place, it’s great to know I have an 18 year old son that cannot manage it. On the plus side, it is helping me get extra support so I have to think positively. I really must get down to booking this GC holiday; it really is daft of me to keep leaving it like this. That’ll be one of my next tasks I think. The guy in Aylesbury, I really like him but it feels like he is messing me about and I don’t need that at all, I need guys that say what they want and communicate. It would be a shame to let that one go but I need to know that what goes on between me and another gu...

OK, I have had it with men, they are all bastards! I always wanted to say that but it’s not true! The guy from 7 years ago is still as cute as hell but I don’t think he has any interest in me perhaps as anything other than a friend, that’s fine, I had a feeling I was on a loser there but we have to hope sometimes! Jermaine is still shitting all over the place and it’s becoming real tiring, the cats manage to shit in the right place, it’s great to know I have an 18 year old son that cannot manage it. On the plus side, it is helping me get extra support so I have to think positively. I really must get down to booking this GC holiday; it really is daft of me to keep leaving it like this. That’ll be one of my next tasks I think. The guy in Aylesbury, I really like him but it feels like he is messing me about and I don’t need that at all, I need guys that say what they want and communicate. It would be a shame to let that one go but I need to know that what goes on between me and another gu...

OK, the shit first, quite literally. Jermaine has taken to shitting all the over the place. It was my bedroom yesterday, all over the place it was, lovely :-( Tonight he comes home from school, he is in a mega hypo, 1.2 which, let me tell you, is dangerously, call the paramedics low. I didn't call them, I had some glucagon here (1" long injection) so I gave him that, he was soon up to 17 but has barely been with us since. I shall check him again before I go up to bed. Earlier I took Charlie out to the woods, he wanted some pictures taken and it would have been rude not to have done so and he seems happy enough with the results. We are talking about the possibility of going to GC together later in the year, we shall see what happens. I got contacted by someone earlier and I am so excited. He is a guy I last met 7 years ago and I had a huge crush on him yet never ever mentioned anything at the time. Well, I don't make that sort of mistake anymore and I am meeting him tomorro...

OK, the shit first, quite literally. Jermaine has taken to shitting all the over the place. It was my bedroom yesterday, all over the place it was, lovely :-( Tonight he comes home from school, he is in a mega hypo, 1.2 which, let me tell you, is dangerously, call the paramedics low. I didn't call them, I had some glucagon here (1" long injection) so I gave him that, he was soon up to 17 but has barely been with us since. I shall check him again before I go up to bed. Earlier I took Charlie out to the woods, he wanted some pictures taken and it would have been rude not to have done so and he seems happy enough with the results. We are talking about the possibility of going to GC together later in the year, we shall see what happens. I got contacted by someone earlier and I am so excited. He is a guy I last met 7 years ago and I had a huge crush on him yet never ever mentioned anything at the time. Well, I don't make that sort of mistake anymore and I am meeting him tomorro...

I have just had a really enjoyable week with a friend of mine. It was nice to have company on equal terms with no complications, just relaxed. We went out a couple of times but nowhere to far, had nothing too boring just enjoyed each others’ company. Sadly, we were stuck in a little more than I would have liked but we managed to entertain ourselves, plenty to do, talk about … even managed to get some use out of the Xbox for a change! Charlie made a visit the other day too which was enjoyable and unexpected though I suspect I didn’t pay him enough attention, not as much as I should of anyway. Jermaine has not been very good this week. He has just sat and stared a lot of the time, no life at all really. Today he has taken to removing his trousers and pants and going naked, can’t say that is any fun either and he is also getting in the habit of being doubly incontinent which gives me the sort of clearing up I would also rather not have. Nothing yet planned for the weekend though I have se...

I have just had a really enjoyable week with a friend of mine. It was nice to have company on equal terms with no complications, just relaxed. We went out a couple of times but nowhere to far, had nothing too boring just enjoyed each others’ company. Sadly, we were stuck in a little more than I would have liked but we managed to entertain ourselves, plenty to do, talk about … even managed to get some use out of the Xbox for a change! Charlie made a visit the other day too which was enjoyable and unexpected though I suspect I didn’t pay him enough attention, not as much as I should of anyway. Jermaine has not been very good this week. He has just sat and stared a lot of the time, no life at all really. Today he has taken to removing his trousers and pants and going naked, can’t say that is any fun either and he is also getting in the habit of being doubly incontinent which gives me the sort of clearing up I would also rather not have. Nothing yet planned for the weekend though I have se...

Totally forgot my login details for this thing for a few days which was a right pain but here I am back again! I was meant to be going to a meeting of the Motor Neurone Disease lot in the afternoon on Sunday but Daisy announced that her friend was coming around and he had epilepsy and really, an adult should be around so I cancelled. Then, when it was too late, she said he had called earlier to say he couldn’t make it! Oh well, it taught me a valuable lesson, I cannot afford to agree to do voluntary work that includes weekends at all. Called MND this morning and told them that unless they could come up with something that involved daytimes during weekdays and also looked good on my CV that I was sorry, I couldn’t help them. Cleaned the car yesterday and before I had a chance to drive it today a bird had already shat on the windscreen! Coloured Matt’s hair earlier. It is not blonde as it should have been but rather orange which, as it happens, works quite well on him! Dj started her per...

Totally forgot my login details for this thing for a few days which was a right pain but here I am back again! I was meant to be going to a meeting of the Motor Neurone Disease lot in the afternoon on Sunday but Daisy announced that her friend was coming around and he had epilepsy and really, an adult should be around so I cancelled. Then, when it was too late, she said he had called earlier to say he couldn’t make it! Oh well, it taught me a valuable lesson, I cannot afford to agree to do voluntary work that includes weekends at all. Called MND this morning and told them that unless they could come up with something that involved daytimes during weekdays and also looked good on my CV that I was sorry, I couldn’t help them. Cleaned the car yesterday and before I had a chance to drive it today a bird had already shat on the windscreen! Coloured Matt’s hair earlier. It is not blonde as it should have been but rather orange which, as it happens, works quite well on him! Dj started her per...

Maybe driving all over the south east is not the best way to start a weekend! Right now I feel totally shattered. Of course, not going to bed the same day I get up is also not a good thing two nights in a row! Went to Kudos in London yesterday and met a guy from Thailand called ‘Porn’, yes, really his name. He was very cute but his ex boyfriend showed up and was totally obnoxious and I don’t need that sort of shit so I made my excuses and left. From there I drove down to Eastbourne to meet someone else. He really is a lovely man and he seemed quite taken with me. Had an enjoyable few hours chat and retired to bed very late indeed. Sadly, a relationship is never going to happen there. Factors that play a part in that are, mainly distance, very high up also is that he smokes which is fine, not complaining but I just couldn’t have a relationship with someone that smokes. As well as that, well, it was really fun but no fireworks, it was more comfortable than explosive and that isn’t a comp...

Maybe driving all over the south east is not the best way to start a weekend! Right now I feel totally shattered. Of course, not going to bed the same day I get up is also not a good thing two nights in a row! Went to Kudos in London yesterday and met a guy from Thailand called ‘Porn’, yes, really his name. He was very cute but his ex boyfriend showed up and was totally obnoxious and I don’t need that sort of shit so I made my excuses and left. From there I drove down to Eastbourne to meet someone else. He really is a lovely man and he seemed quite taken with me. Had an enjoyable few hours chat and retired to bed very late indeed. Sadly, a relationship is never going to happen there. Factors that play a part in that are, mainly distance, very high up also is that he smokes which is fine, not complaining but I just couldn’t have a relationship with someone that smokes. As well as that, well, it was really fun but no fireworks, it was more comfortable than explosive and that isn’t a comp...