Steve from England

Yes, that’s me! I have no idea who I am any more so I must be some sort of fraud. I have no idea how to relax and enjoy myself, I am always on the go. I have no value ‘to me’. I know I am of value to others but I personally get very little out of my life now, just some rare, quiet thoughtful moments where some pleasure seeps in. When it could seem I am enjoying myself my mind is still belting through trying to resolve other peoples issues, worrying about debt, worrying about what person or organisation is going to screw up next and give me more grief ‘I’ have to deal with. It seems to me that when I am needed to do something I do it as soon as I can, nearly always as soon as asked and only very rarely have to refuse to do something. That only works the one way though, if I ask someone else to do something I can just about rely now on the belief it won’t be done. I have been so busy being there for others I now have no room left for me. I am not exaggerating, I really don’t have a...

Yes, that’s me! I have no idea who I am any more so I must be some sort of fraud. I have no idea how to relax and enjoy myself, I am always on the go. I have no value ‘to me’. I know I am of value to others but I personally get very little out of my life now, just some rare, quiet thoughtful moments where some pleasure seeps in. When it could seem I am enjoying myself my mind is still belting through trying to resolve other peoples issues, worrying about debt, worrying about what person or organisation is going to screw up next and give me more grief ‘I’ have to deal with. It seems to me that when I am needed to do something I do it as soon as I can, nearly always as soon as asked and only very rarely have to refuse to do something. That only works the one way though, if I ask someone else to do something I can just about rely now on the belief it won’t be done. I have been so busy being there for others I now have no room left for me. I am not exaggerating, I really don’t have a...

My apologies for not writing any updates in such a long while. Just recently my graphics card died in my PC leaving me off line as far as this blog is concerned, for some time. Not that this is the only reason I’ve not posted anything, that’s mainly for two reasons. Either, not a lot worth writing about has happened or, a lot has happened but it would be inappropriate to write about it on a public forum. I have ordered a new car, did I blog that? It is a Ford Galaxy Titanium which is not the top of the range but the next one down. Hopefully it doesn’t take too long to arrive. I am currently having issues with Key2/Social Services with Javis. They are playing their segregation game whereby they insist on only allowing people ‘on side’ into meetings. That way they can be more intimidating to youngsters and get them to cooperate easier in their crap. Of course, it now also means we don’t know what they are actually going to do to help Javis with his new flat which means I can’t do any...

My apologies for not writing any updates in such a long while. Just recently my graphics card died in my PC leaving me off line as far as this blog is concerned, for some time. Not that this is the only reason I’ve not posted anything, that’s mainly for two reasons. Either, not a lot worth writing about has happened or, a lot has happened but it would be inappropriate to write about it on a public forum. I have ordered a new car, did I blog that? It is a Ford Galaxy Titanium which is not the top of the range but the next one down. Hopefully it doesn’t take too long to arrive. I am currently having issues with Key2/Social Services with Javis. They are playing their segregation game whereby they insist on only allowing people ‘on side’ into meetings. That way they can be more intimidating to youngsters and get them to cooperate easier in their crap. Of course, it now also means we don’t know what they are actually going to do to help Javis with his new flat which means I can’t do any...