Steve from England

Joshua Jai was born Saturday. 26th Sept at 11:55 weighing 8lbs 4oz. Daisy started to have contractions on Thursday morning but they were not strong enough to get her 'established' until Saturday. We actually got caught short in Tesco and had to dash home because she couldn't walk any more! There were two midwives here, at home, during the birth along with myself and Sean the whole time with James around most of the time as well. Deej wandered in and out, made teas and generally worried for England along with Zoey. Daisy was amazing. No screaming, no time wasting. She used each one of those contractions for all it had. Joshua was born healthy with no damage done to Daisy. James has been here loads and has turned out to be one amazing dad. Sean too has stepped up to the mark and taking his role seriously. Daisy, of course, has taken to motherhood like a duck to water. I am very proud of all three of them. Of course, all is not perfect, some people, and they know who they are,...

Joshua Jai was born Saturday. 26th Sept at 11:55 weighing 8lbs 4oz. Daisy started to have contractions on Thursday morning but they were not strong enough to get her 'established' until Saturday. We actually got caught short in Tesco and had to dash home because she couldn't walk any more! There were two midwives here, at home, during the birth along with myself and Sean the whole time with James around most of the time as well. Deej wandered in and out, made teas and generally worried for England along with Zoey. Daisy was amazing. No screaming, no time wasting. She used each one of those contractions for all it had. Joshua was born healthy with no damage done to Daisy. James has been here loads and has turned out to be one amazing dad. Sean too has stepped up to the mark and taking his role seriously. Daisy, of course, has taken to motherhood like a duck to water. I am very proud of all three of them. Of course, all is not perfect, some people, and they know who they are,...

I have decided to have an early night ... I figure that in the US right now it is 7:20pm and that's quite early so I am settling down for the night, US style. Now, I have a lot of young people who have definite needs right now. Not all of them are my flesh and blood but, all the same, if no other bugger is going to be there for them then I damn well will be. The frustrating part is, at 46 I don't have all the tools to be able to help them. My tool set is quite well stocked but I have some missing and some I don't know how to use to the best effect. If any of those young people are reading this, please stay with me. I will do my best, I just cannot promise it is perfection or good enough either first time or every time, sometimes we shall just have to work it out together. There is no 4 month barrier, that's a myth and probably just something which is self creating now. Money problems don't and certainly should never sort themselves out. We need to take control or ou...

I have decided to have an early night ... I figure that in the US right now it is 7:20pm and that's quite early so I am settling down for the night, US style. Now, I have a lot of young people who have definite needs right now. Not all of them are my flesh and blood but, all the same, if no other bugger is going to be there for them then I damn well will be. The frustrating part is, at 46 I don't have all the tools to be able to help them. My tool set is quite well stocked but I have some missing and some I don't know how to use to the best effect. If any of those young people are reading this, please stay with me. I will do my best, I just cannot promise it is perfection or good enough either first time or every time, sometimes we shall just have to work it out together. There is no 4 month barrier, that's a myth and probably just something which is self creating now. Money problems don't and certainly should never sort themselves out. We need to take control or ou...

There is a very real risk that this is going to come across as racist. My apologies in advance for that but I am hopeful that my need for understanding will be accepted which means I do have to question certain issues which trouble me. At 46 maybe I am old enough to say I have lived enough to have formed an opinion on the world around me, how it may have changed or merely, how I have perceived a change. In my youth I had an understanding of the UK which I considered historical. That the way things were was how they had been for centuries allowing for natural change, advancement in technology etc. In general the population was majority fair skinned, spoke with one of the many English regional accents and could trace their roots back at least a few generations to some part of the United Kingdom. Yes, I recall some contradiction to that. I was raised in Dagenham just 10 miles east of London, closer to London still was East Ham, Upton Park, West Ham etc as the district line underground tra...

There is a very real risk that this is going to come across as racist. My apologies in advance for that but I am hopeful that my need for understanding will be accepted which means I do have to question certain issues which trouble me. At 46 maybe I am old enough to say I have lived enough to have formed an opinion on the world around me, how it may have changed or merely, how I have perceived a change. In my youth I had an understanding of the UK which I considered historical. That the way things were was how they had been for centuries allowing for natural change, advancement in technology etc. In general the population was majority fair skinned, spoke with one of the many English regional accents and could trace their roots back at least a few generations to some part of the United Kingdom. Yes, I recall some contradiction to that. I was raised in Dagenham just 10 miles east of London, closer to London still was East Ham, Upton Park, West Ham etc as the district line underground tra...

This is what is happening between my mouse and keyboard and Deej's and it's flippin' annoying! If we both use our PC's at the same time we are typing crap, nothing entered, too much entered and the mice are all over the place .. looks like we need to spend yet more money getting Deej wired. Speaking of wired ... for some weird reason I have had no speakers on my PC for months ... I only noticed today, which is weird, but the speakers I use were not connected, didn't even have a cable so I guess that they have been like that since we rebuilt the office and here I was thinking my hearing had gone crap because everything sounded rubbish! Still ever waiting for grandchild number 1 to be born though I suspect it won't be long ... the ugly head of family politics is showing again so the sooner this baby is born and we can work out who is going to do what and how well, the better! It would appear that a certain bitch has been stirring up trouble again, she needs shooti...

This is what is happening between my mouse and keyboard and Deej's and it's flippin' annoying! If we both use our PC's at the same time we are typing crap, nothing entered, too much entered and the mice are all over the place .. looks like we need to spend yet more money getting Deej wired. Speaking of wired ... for some weird reason I have had no speakers on my PC for months ... I only noticed today, which is weird, but the speakers I use were not connected, didn't even have a cable so I guess that they have been like that since we rebuilt the office and here I was thinking my hearing had gone crap because everything sounded rubbish! Still ever waiting for grandchild number 1 to be born though I suspect it won't be long ... the ugly head of family politics is showing again so the sooner this baby is born and we can work out who is going to do what and how well, the better! It would appear that a certain bitch has been stirring up trouble again, she needs shooti...

I am hoping that by September 11th things will be a lot more settled. We need to keep moving forward and not be stalled or, worse, heading backwards. This is a very complex family, holding it together is a challenge so, a little more help would be greatly appreciate ... they need me over at The United Nations and I have to keep fobbing them off so should everyone feel like actually sitting around the table it would be greatly appreciated! At the very least, please, no more surprises. Let us just work on building what we have with the building blocks we have rather than complicating matters all the more. What could be really useful would be to get rid of the dead wood, the stupid idiots who either just want to stir shit or, worse, do so in an official capacity. We don't need any self styled Jeremy Kyle types, we, as a family, can work this out together so that everyone is happy. I am being honest here, I don't think I have the energy for one more pointless onslaught from social ...

I am hoping that by September 11th things will be a lot more settled. We need to keep moving forward and not be stalled or, worse, heading backwards. This is a very complex family, holding it together is a challenge so, a little more help would be greatly appreciate ... they need me over at The United Nations and I have to keep fobbing them off so should everyone feel like actually sitting around the table it would be greatly appreciated! At the very least, please, no more surprises. Let us just work on building what we have with the building blocks we have rather than complicating matters all the more. What could be really useful would be to get rid of the dead wood, the stupid idiots who either just want to stir shit or, worse, do so in an official capacity. We don't need any self styled Jeremy Kyle types, we, as a family, can work this out together so that everyone is happy. I am being honest here, I don't think I have the energy for one more pointless onslaught from social ...

It seemed not five minutes since 2009 had just started and we had a whole year to look forward to and ... what a year! Time seems, in many respects, to be flying by so fast it is all I can do to hold on to the tail feathers and not get left behind and then, at other times, events take so long to complete. Right now I probably have more of my life 'on the go' than I ever have. It seems there is a near endless list of events not yet quite happening. Yes, there is definite promise of them bursting into existence at any time but, and it is a big BUT, some of these things have taken months in the making and I have no idea just when they are cooked. Is the light in this tunnel at the end or, is it an oncoming train? This is where the speed versus lag comes into play ... time goes so rapid that the direction seems to be decided before thought has woken up and taken hold of the rope. The drawback there is, I am constantly having to rewrite the map to work out how to get to the objec...

It seemed not five minutes since 2009 had just started and we had a whole year to look forward to and ... what a year! Time seems, in many respects, to be flying by so fast it is all I can do to hold on to the tail feathers and not get left behind and then, at other times, events take so long to complete. Right now I probably have more of my life 'on the go' than I ever have. It seems there is a near endless list of events not yet quite happening. Yes, there is definite promise of them bursting into existence at any time but, and it is a big BUT, some of these things have taken months in the making and I have no idea just when they are cooked. Is the light in this tunnel at the end or, is it an oncoming train? This is where the speed versus lag comes into play ... time goes so rapid that the direction seems to be decided before thought has woken up and taken hold of the rope. The drawback there is, I am constantly having to rewrite the map to work out how to get to the objec...