Steve from England

I have changed the look of this back to a more basic template just for ease of reading. For the record, and for those who don't read what this blog is about ... it is my therapy. Not that I need therapy very often but I find a safety valve handy now and then. It really is never more than a snapshot though, a momentary glance into my current thinking and not representative of my life in general. Invariably that will mean this blog could give the impression that my life is full of doom and gloom and negative experiences, it really isn't. On the whole I have a good life, surrounded by amazing people. Of course, those who really know me know all the above already, they don't need telling. Those that don't know me may think I am a sad git with no hope for the future, that's not my problem. Whilst I allow this blog to be public it is not going to be fully understood by the vast majority of those reading it Meanwhile, back to at the moment ... well, actually, at the moment...

I have changed the look of this back to a more basic template just for ease of reading. For the record, and for those who don't read what this blog is about ... it is my therapy. Not that I need therapy very often but I find a safety valve handy now and then. It really is never more than a snapshot though, a momentary glance into my current thinking and not representative of my life in general. Invariably that will mean this blog could give the impression that my life is full of doom and gloom and negative experiences, it really isn't. On the whole I have a good life, surrounded by amazing people. Of course, those who really know me know all the above already, they don't need telling. Those that don't know me may think I am a sad git with no hope for the future, that's not my problem. Whilst I allow this blog to be public it is not going to be fully understood by the vast majority of those reading it Meanwhile, back to at the moment ... well, actually, at the moment...

April is nearly over already! At this speed by the time we land in Gran Canaria we just as well head on straight back home again! Had an interview today, more of an informal chat I guess. It was with the Carers Centre in Whitworth Road. I am going to start working there after our holiday as a volunteer but who knows where it may lead. On the plus side, it will look brilliant on my CV and my first step to 'proper' work which I am really looking forward to, I want to be anonymous again. I have been quite upset about the new of the young guy in Redditch Seems he has a very similar condition to Jermaine and I just can't imagine anything like that happening. After all that struggling, and his mother too, to have it ended so pointlessly. Tomorrow I get my hair done ready for the holiday and today I bought some new clothes for it. Deej had his hair done yesterday. (Looks amazing by the way) Having left Kagoul I am a lot more chilled. Clicking on the 'Kagoul' link will ta...

April is nearly over already! At this speed by the time we land in Gran Canaria we just as well head on straight back home again! Had an interview today, more of an informal chat I guess. It was with the Carers Centre in Whitworth Road. I am going to start working there after our holiday as a volunteer but who knows where it may lead. On the plus side, it will look brilliant on my CV and my first step to 'proper' work which I am really looking forward to, I want to be anonymous again. I have been quite upset about the new of the young guy in Redditch Seems he has a very similar condition to Jermaine and I just can't imagine anything like that happening. After all that struggling, and his mother too, to have it ended so pointlessly. Tomorrow I get my hair done ready for the holiday and today I bought some new clothes for it. Deej had his hair done yesterday. (Looks amazing by the way) Having left Kagoul I am a lot more chilled. Clicking on the 'Kagoul' link will ta...

I have been using the internet for some 12 years now. There have, in all the time, been just two times when I have wondered if it was more poo that it was cake and now is one of those times. To be honest I am not getting a great deal out of it. The gay dads site is nigh on dead in the water. A few guys post now and then but I have to put a lot of effort into to it to keep it moving and I just can't be arsed. Out! is OK, handy for advice and large enough to have a good mix of people but it's a little samey and hardly anyone wants to move from net mates to real mates. Kagoul is just a joke at the moment. It's so bad even the moderator is thinking of quitting! Thingbox is a vile place. One guy who just got booted off Kagoul for 2 days for telling lies about me has been sending messages to me, here is one lovely example: Hmmm… so how does it feel to finally discover how widely loathed you are on Kagoul? I almost felt sorry for you when I left Kagoul which is why I dropped...

I have been using the internet for some 12 years now. There have, in all the time, been just two times when I have wondered if it was more poo that it was cake and now is one of those times. To be honest I am not getting a great deal out of it. The gay dads site is nigh on dead in the water. A few guys post now and then but I have to put a lot of effort into to it to keep it moving and I just can't be arsed. Out! is OK, handy for advice and large enough to have a good mix of people but it's a little samey and hardly anyone wants to move from net mates to real mates. Kagoul is just a joke at the moment. It's so bad even the moderator is thinking of quitting! Thingbox is a vile place. One guy who just got booted off Kagoul for 2 days for telling lies about me has been sending messages to me, here is one lovely example: Hmmm… so how does it feel to finally discover how widely loathed you are on Kagoul? I almost felt sorry for you when I left Kagoul which is why I dropped...

Yesterday (Friday) was quite busy already. I had to take Daisy to a work placement interview (work experience) in the morning then down to town to meet her friends. I'd arranged to meet Nick in town to discuss some stuff after that. Before I left home there was a text from Stan saying how he'd be down later in the day. I replied that I'd probably not be back before early afternoon and left it at that. At just after 1pm I got a message from Deej saying Stan had just dropped in and then gone again leaving instruction that I were to text him as soon as I were available. I did that and he said he'd call back again at home to see us properly. Nick came back with us as well. Soon afterwards I got a text from someone asking if Stan had been patronising to Deej, apparently he'd been boasting how he was always patronising to people he thought deserved it. By 6pm time was getting on, dinner to get etc and still no Stan. Sent a text and he just said 'sorry, went back to Le...

Yesterday (Friday) was quite busy already. I had to take Daisy to a work placement interview (work experience) in the morning then down to town to meet her friends. I'd arranged to meet Nick in town to discuss some stuff after that. Before I left home there was a text from Stan saying how he'd be down later in the day. I replied that I'd probably not be back before early afternoon and left it at that. At just after 1pm I got a message from Deej saying Stan had just dropped in and then gone again leaving instruction that I were to text him as soon as I were available. I did that and he said he'd call back again at home to see us properly. Nick came back with us as well. Soon afterwards I got a text from someone asking if Stan had been patronising to Deej, apparently he'd been boasting how he was always patronising to people he thought deserved it. By 6pm time was getting on, dinner to get etc and still no Stan. Sent a text and he just said 'sorry, went back to Le...

No, not all those nice hunky men in camouflage gear but Northampton's own 'Jesus Army'. After doing a small amount of research I discovered they actually started in the late 60's in Bugbrooke. For the first couple of decades they were busy falling out with all other organised religion until they were left somewhat isolated and in danger of being known as a cult on their farm. In the 80's they decided they needed to make some changes and many of us will have noticed how in the past few years it is impossible to travel around the town without seeing either one of their buildings or some of their vehicles. They own the two tower blocks near town, have a 99 year lease on the old Cannon cinema in Abbey Stand own some property, at least two houses in East Park Parade which overlooks the racecourse. They also own a few businesses. One in Towcester and another in Daventry. There may be others but my brain can't pinpoint them right now. Their membership - I am stopping m...

No, not all those nice hunky men in camouflage gear but Northampton's own 'Jesus Army'. After doing a small amount of research I discovered they actually started in the late 60's in Bugbrooke. For the first couple of decades they were busy falling out with all other organised religion until they were left somewhat isolated and in danger of being known as a cult on their farm. In the 80's they decided they needed to make some changes and many of us will have noticed how in the past few years it is impossible to travel around the town without seeing either one of their buildings or some of their vehicles. They own the two tower blocks near town, have a 99 year lease on the old Cannon cinema in Abbey Stand own some property, at least two houses in East Park Parade which overlooks the racecourse. They also own a few businesses. One in Towcester and another in Daventry. There may be others but my brain can't pinpoint them right now. Their membership - I am stopping m...

I have spent a few hours in bed today in between visits from first Robin and David and then Robin on his own and I think I really needed that to help me recover. Still really aching and my nose feels like it is on fire but apart from that I don't feel as bad as I have done after previous decorating stints. On the plus side, all rooms are now tidy and being used properly though some minor housework needs doing. I am so glad it is a mild evening as I have just spent an hour out in the garden getting the rubbish ready for going out tomoz. Three black sacks worth of the girls rubbish had to be removed from wheelie bins to make way for 'proper' rubbish. Their discarded crap will be taken to the tip tomorrow. The bin men will just love the mountain of cardboard we are putting out for them! I still have a picture to out up in the office and some shelves in the kitchen which I should so just get on and do and stop thinking about doing! Have been invited to dinner by the guy who col...

I have spent a few hours in bed today in between visits from first Robin and David and then Robin on his own and I think I really needed that to help me recover. Still really aching and my nose feels like it is on fire but apart from that I don't feel as bad as I have done after previous decorating stints. On the plus side, all rooms are now tidy and being used properly though some minor housework needs doing. I am so glad it is a mild evening as I have just spent an hour out in the garden getting the rubbish ready for going out tomoz. Three black sacks worth of the girls rubbish had to be removed from wheelie bins to make way for 'proper' rubbish. Their discarded crap will be taken to the tip tomorrow. The bin men will just love the mountain of cardboard we are putting out for them! I still have a picture to out up in the office and some shelves in the kitchen which I should so just get on and do and stop thinking about doing! Have been invited to dinner by the guy who col...