Steve from England

Operation never happened ... they knocked me out OK but apparently forgot their tools again so I was woken up having not had surgery. I discharged myself, I thought it wise to do that and to avoid the surgeon on the grounds that the man may have taken offence to my attitude had we met. Now I am at Gary & Toms (No Tom) with Deej with a sore throat and about to go get Chinese ... we did managed to sort out the house a little, get things moved from one place to another.

Operation never happened ... they knocked me out OK but apparently forgot their tools again so I was woken up having not had surgery. I discharged myself, I thought it wise to do that and to avoid the surgeon on the grounds that the man may have taken offence to my attitude had we met. Now I am at Gary & Toms (No Tom) with Deej with a sore throat and about to go get Chinese ... we did managed to sort out the house a little, get things moved from one place to another.

Now, how regular am I? No, not how often do I shit but how lax have I become at writing this? Yep, I am baaaaad, very Bad! Okies, some updates: Still with John, that’s 11 weeks today so not bad and everything is rosy … like you could not tell from how rarely I write these days. Matt has finally got a job working for Tesco but boy he took it to the wire getting himself within days of being kicked out and I would have done it too. He still hangs out with kiddies, his girlfriend is a child at 14 I think it is or it could be 15 by now and most of his other friends are 16 or under. That worries me as he is preventing himself from moving on and getting a real life, instead he has his focus in life the xbox and not a lot above the level of school yard chatter. He starts his HND course today … started it would be a better way of putting it I guess and hopefully he will stick with it and maybe remember to turn up for any exams there may be but this is Matt we are talking about. As far as I can ...

Now, how regular am I? No, not how often do I shit but how lax have I become at writing this? Yep, I am baaaaad, very Bad! Okies, some updates: Still with John, that’s 11 weeks today so not bad and everything is rosy … like you could not tell from how rarely I write these days. Matt has finally got a job working for Tesco but boy he took it to the wire getting himself within days of being kicked out and I would have done it too. He still hangs out with kiddies, his girlfriend is a child at 14 I think it is or it could be 15 by now and most of his other friends are 16 or under. That worries me as he is preventing himself from moving on and getting a real life, instead he has his focus in life the xbox and not a lot above the level of school yard chatter. He starts his HND course today … started it would be a better way of putting it I guess and hopefully he will stick with it and maybe remember to turn up for any exams there may be but this is Matt we are talking about. As far as I can ...

I can recall that around a year ago my stress levels were rising around this time but back then I blamed it on the continuing crisis with Jermaine. There is good reason now to reconsider that argument. Looking back it has always been around September or October where I have hit my low point. This could be a seasonal adjustment moving from summer to autumn and onto winter and that long cold slog or, and I feel this is more likely, it is seasonal but related to what happens around this time of year. The school holidays are drawing to conclusion and they will have been heavily pressured with some many people under one roof at a time and often way too many people once all the kids mates are taken into the equation. Matt will be doing his regular yearly thing of going back to college yet never quite seeming to do so with ever increasing periods at home for alleged ‘study’. I will see myself as yet again putting off an education that is long overdue and looking for ‘me time’ which never seem...

I can recall that around a year ago my stress levels were rising around this time but back then I blamed it on the continuing crisis with Jermaine. There is good reason now to reconsider that argument. Looking back it has always been around September or October where I have hit my low point. This could be a seasonal adjustment moving from summer to autumn and onto winter and that long cold slog or, and I feel this is more likely, it is seasonal but related to what happens around this time of year. The school holidays are drawing to conclusion and they will have been heavily pressured with some many people under one roof at a time and often way too many people once all the kids mates are taken into the equation. Matt will be doing his regular yearly thing of going back to college yet never quite seeming to do so with ever increasing periods at home for alleged ‘study’. I will see myself as yet again putting off an education that is long overdue and looking for ‘me time’ which never seem...